𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐘 | toni shalifoe [the wilds]

5

my eyes fluttered open from my sleep. i looked around but everyone was still sleeping except one of the girls was missing.

leah. i remember her being there before i fell asleep but i just shook it off, thinking maybe she went for a walk.

it had been windy and i just wanted some time alone.

i stood up, wiping off any sand on me and then it kind of hit me, it wasn't just a dream.

i sighed as i started my walk along the shore eventually finding a spot to sit and think for a little.

it was just me and my thoughts once again.
i stared out at the water blankly letting the wind blow through my hair.

even though it had been less than 24 hours, this place made you think about life.

how in the grand scheme of things, everything did have a meaning behind it.

maybe we ended up here for a reason, to teach us something, or to let go of something.

i looked down at my feet and noticed my anklet that ethan had given me for valentine's day.

i scoffed looking at, just the thought of him making me feel sick.
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my feet were cold as i walked along the wood floor to my bathroom, shutting the door and locking it behind me.

i looked in the mirror fixing a few strands of fly aways.

i sighed grabbing the sleeve to my hoodie and pulling it up, revealing a dark bruise on my wrist.

my fingers lightly traced the sensitive skin, as tears filled my eyes.

i wondered to myself why i was still with him and why i didn't just end it, but lord knows what would happen if i even tried.
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i snapped back into reality, quickly wiping the tears from my face as i tried to calm myself.

some time had passed before i felt someone sit next to me.

"hey"

i glanced over, seeing toni. what a surprise. she sent me an apologetic smile.

i turned away rolling my eyes, remembering the situation from yesterday.

" what now? did you come to insult about my shitty boyfriend or should i be scared that you might hit me with a branch again?" i questioned as i looked out at the waves.

"um yeah about that.. i came to apologize, i'm- i'm sorry zaylee." she stuttered.

"yeah whatever, i'm over it... but that doesn't mean that i like you or that we're friends or anything." i stated

toni scoffed and stood up from beside me in anger.

" why is everything a struggle with you? i'm trying to apologize, can't you just get over yourself for once?!" she scoffed as she yelled in anger.

i looked up at her with my brows furrowed before standing up facing her.

" get over myself? you insulted my boyfriend and oh not to mention, you hit me with a fucking branch because i called you crazy! so, no toni, i won't get over myself, or the fact that we're stranded in this fucking hellhole!" i shouted practically fuming.

toni stared back at me in shock, shaking her head as she scoffed and walked away, i watched as she walked away regretting how harsh i was.

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some time had passed after leah, shelby, nora and rachel had left which left me, fatin, dot, toni and martha.

i fidgeted with my fingers as i watched dot and fatin search through fatin's suitcase, even though pretty much everything there was useless.

i glanced over at toni, as she talked with martha, i couldn't help but feel bad for how nasty i was to her earlier.

"hey, what are those pink things in the bottom of your junk pile?" i heard fatin ask, i looked to see what she was talking about as dot brought them over to me and fatin.

"oh shit, are those swag bags?" i questioned while laughing.

"what is swag, and why would it be in a bag?" dot replied confused as she passed me the small pink bag with "zaylee" on it.

i opened it up going through what was inside, all of which was completely useless in our situation.

i sighed setting the bag down listening to dot and fatin talk.

"let's just say i've had a shitty few years" fatin stated.
"yeah, something like that." i agreed
"hard fucking same." dot added.

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while toni and martha left and dot was going through whatever we had managed to save, that left me and fatin.

i watched as fatin came up and sat next to me staring at me in curiosity.

"so.. what's up with you and the aries?" she questioned.

i looked at her with my eyebrows furrowed, not understanding what she meant.

"what?" i asked completely confused.
"you know...toni... oh come on don't act like there isn't some serious sexual tension between the two of you." she teased.

i scoffed, seriously not understanding where she was coming from.

"woah, okay fatin, first off i know we're stranded on an island and all but could you get more delusional, and second there is nothing going on between me and her, and what in the hell makes you think that anyways?!" i quizzed.

"well for starters yesterday, you and her both came back from your walk acting all weird, and today everyone woke up and you two were both gone again, oh and not to mention, how you were staring at her earlier." she elaborated.

i have to say, i was a little taken back by how quickly fatin caught on to things, but i never thought she would think there was something between me and toni.

i looked down towards the sand and played with my fingers, not sure what to say.

"we- we just had an argument, and for the record, i- i don't like her like that, i'm not sure we even like each other at all right now." i admitted while playing with my fingers.

i'm not sure how fatin came up with the idea that me and toni had something going on, but there was always a possibility.

what if she was right?

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this chapter is actually terrible but i haven't updated in so long sorry!<3