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📍Paige's Mom House, California November 18th 2020
Paige POV
Draft Day
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It's Draft day. This was supposed to be the happiest night of my baby's life, so why am I spending it away from him?
After all the commotion of the previous day and him basically confirming the news through that sorry ass text. Instead of going home I found my way to my mom's house.
I had to tell her about the pregnancy, she said she picked up signs so she wasn't surprised and whatever decision I make concerning it she'd support me, but she deeply hoped I made the right one
I told myself if I was ever in this situation, I wouldn't dare cry. Why give him or her the power or satisfaction of knowing they hurt me.
But this did hurt me. Bad
I don't even understand what I did or what led up to this. We were fine better than fine really. Our petty arguments about his jealousy ended as soon as they started. We spent almost everyday together since he's been back from Detroit and I got back from filming so when did he even have time to do anything?
Questions roamed my mind the whole night following into today. My mom comforted me. Encouraged me to talk to him and hear the full story. Us being God fearing women she recited scriptures that made me think harder.
"Take heed to yourselves: If thy brother trespass against thee, rebuke him; and if he repent, forgive him"
I couldn't find it in my heart or anywhere else in my body, the feelings to hate him. I could never hate him or anybody or anything. I'm just not like that but I strongly dislike how bad he's made me feel and look.
If being in a relationship in front of the public or at all was too much for him we could've went back to how we were; best friends or not posting about each other
Forgiveness. Can I forgive him? Should I forgive him?
Ephesians tells us to, "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you."
I love LaMelo too much to kick him out of my life and possibly his kid's life. Our kid
He's been begging for us to try for a baby since a little before Loveli was born, and since I already knew I've been looking for ways to tell him
How are we supposed to bring a child into the world after this. Knowing him he'll probably think this will just fix everything, but it won't. I can't trust him but I think I can forgive him
I need to talk to him or just be by his side and let him know that for now I'm still here , but that could change
I got out of bed for the first time today and took a shower. After completing my hygiene routine I searched for an all black outfit deciding to match with the outfit I helped Melo pick for tonight. I found a skirt I would love to wear before I get too big to wear it again. I'm nearing 3 months so I haven't put on too big of a belly
My phone buzzed meaning It had to be my mom or sisters as they were the only ones who could bypass my do not disturb mode
Momma Bear ❤ Are you up? 5:21 pm
Momma Bear ❤ Well when you do get up, I'll be in my office if you need me 7:44 pm Seen
I finished getting ready and grabbed my purse, a plain black face mask and my keys that were attached to a lanyard. It was still pretty bright outside and my outfit is cute why not take some pictures while I'm in a good mood.
Maybe post some let that chick know she can't touch me, like my favorite bible verse says "She who kneels before God can stand before anyone."
I walked down the steps to the first level of my Mom's house and found her still in her office. I guess she heard me walk in and she looked up from her computer taking off her reading glasses
"You look cute, are you gonna go?" she asks
"Yea I feel like I should still be there to support him and try to talk to him about everything, " I sighed and she closed her laptop and came over me taking me in what felt like the hundreth hug between last night and today
"You mind taking some pictures of me outside?" I asked and she laughed
"Sure, wanna go out there " She pointed to the sliding door in this room that led to a balcony and I nodded walking out and posing some while she got some pictures putting on a fake smile in some trying not to let a tear fall
After a good minute of that I looked at the pictures and chose one to post. Talked to my mom some about what I should discuss with him and then was on my way
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thugginn Philippians 4:13
ryandestiny here for you always girl❤
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zo giving you some space but we all here for you ❤ ↳denisereann @thugginn we love you girl ↳ ballfamfan why her comments turn into sad sappy shii
ballfacts are you gonna be with @melo for draft night?
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author note: 2 parts left and that'll be the end of this book...i'm still deciding if i wanna make it come back for another "season"
