Heal me

Chapter 1

Meredith Grey is a young ambitious surgeon. She graduated med school and is now beginning her internship at SGH. Straight A student, though that's more of a talent because she is not a try hard. Brilliant mind for which she would have to thank her ,now estranged mother, the famous Ellis Grey. Though brilliant and put together she may be on her professional life, her personal life "a big fat disaster" as she likes to call it. She does not take men seriously, or women for that matter. The last time she was in a relationship with a guy it ended up in a tragic way, quite literally. And girl friends? The last girl she slept with, Sadie, she fell head over heels for her. She thought she could settle. Next thing she knows, she finds her in bed with a random dutch girl. From then on Meredith decided that she would never trust a person with her heart, she drowned herself in tequila shots and endless meaningless one-night stands. But love- well. Love is like an asteroid. It comes so close, you see it, but you're unable to move out of its way. You sit there hoping it will miss you. And when you least expect it, you find yourself in a cosmic catastrophe ready to completely and utterly destroy you. Maybe in a good way, though. Maybe it comes to destroy your walls. Meredith has many walls, well prepared for any asteroid coming her way and she knows it.

She was downing tequila like it was water at a bar. Once again looking for a guy to sleep with, only to leave him wondering in the early hours of the next day sparing herself from the very awkward and much unnecessary small talk like "we'll talk?" or "can I get your number?". Oh how Meredith hated those two questions. A tall, dark haired guy approached her taking up the seat right next to her.

"Double scotch single malt, please" he politely said to the bartender.

She already didn't like him. Scotch? Who the hell drinks scotch! He was very handsome though. That was until he tried to have a conversation and every inch of her wanted to put her tongue down his throat just to shut him up. Well, that and the idea of her tongue in his mouth seemed very pleasing in her drunken state.

Next morning

Her head was pounding. She woke up to a naked man next to her on the floor. 'Great! I brought him here. Now let's kick him out.' She thought to herself. She stood up wrapped herself in a blanket that up until that point was covering the naked arse of the guy. 'His very cute butt' she thought. 'Stop! You have to kick him out, Meredith. Plus it's late. Do you want to make us late on our first day?NO' She was so caught up in her thoughts she didn't realize he had woken up and he was very naked in front of her. She tried to kick him out as politely as she could.

"...So goodbye,..." she has now realized she doesn't even know his name. 'Good job, Mer' she thought.

"Derek.." he said kind of disappointed at the realization that he didn't bother asking for her name last night, yet he got her naked and screaming not much later.

"Right, Meredith" she said. They shook hands and Meredith got out of the very uncomfortable situation she got herself in and left the very handsome man in her living room.

"Bye, Derek" She said, and she had already made her way half up the stairs.

That day at work *TW please be careful*

Meredith was with her patients parents, who understandably had a lot of questions, her intern self didn't have answers to. When she reluctantly asked her resident, Dr. Bailey or as most people refer to her, the Nazi, she referred her to the new head of neurosurgery, Dr. Shepherd. She looked over to the direction Bailey was showing her, only to realize her ONE night stand was right there. ' well crap, this isn't supposed to happen. One night stands don't show up at your work place. They especially don't show up at your work place as your BOSS' she panicked. Before she could run, their eyes met. She frantically fled the scene but with no success, because next thing she knows his hand grabs her arm a little too tight for her liking.

"Don't touch me!" she said quite shaken up.

Once he realized how hard he was grasping her he let go.

"I'm sorry, Meredith, I didn't mean to." It did seem a little weird to him that she was reacting that dramatically over him grabbing her arm.

"You don't grab women like that, Dr. Shepherd. It's not polite on your behalf." She tried to conceal her reaction. It worked, obviously. He was oblivious to the destress he had caused her.

-Flashback-

Meredith was running out of her Boston apartment trying to get away from the man that had just forced himself into her. She was running and suddenly an arm grabs her, turning her around. Another hand lands on her face and she blacks out.

"Meredith!!" she came out of her thoughts.

"I'm sorry. What do you want Dr. Shepherd? I'm your intern. You're my attending. This, us, can't be anything. Now if you'll excuse me..." and with that she left. She found herself in the restroom, trying to calm down as she was now hyperventilating.

A/N: I will obviously continue writing this but since I'm just begging it would mean the absolute world if you left some feedback. I read a lot of fanfics so I tried to make my writing style match what I like seeing in a book. So whatever you dislike just leave a comment. I already have a warning but nevertheless I will put one before any chapter because it is really really important