pregnancy ➵ ashton irwin/5sos

i'm sorry

hey guys, i'm sorry that i haven't posted a chapter in a month.
and no, i'm not on hiatus and i'm not gonna delete this story, don't worry about that.
i just have been a mess lately, and it seems like i'm always busy.
i have been lacking time or whatever it is to write, i have ideas but i didn't know how to start the chapter and shit like that, and i guess i've been on a writer's block for this story.
i got back to school last week (day 2), and i'm back at morning time and i'm getting used to it again.
and they split all my friends and me, so we're not in the same class anymore and some are not even in the morning time because school put them in the afternoon, and it makes me sad and angry.
the guy i like is at the afternoon time, and this year was supposed to be "our year", we would really talk and have real conversations, but then school had to put him in the afternoon time, and my friend that likes anime and we were really close is also having class in the afternoon. and the guy i just saw him twice this year, one last week in the first day i saw him walking to school but he didn't saw me since i was inside the car, and i saw him today because my brother took a lot of time to pick me up at school and when the guy that i like finally appeared, my brother appeared, so we just saw each other and didn't even said hi or anything.
and i have been a mess thinking about my (ex) best friend, because i see him everyday and it makes me sad that we don't talk anymore, and i know that he wants to talk with me as much as i do, but we're both shy and timid, so it's terrible. and in the first day his friends were going to push him into me, but in the exactly moment that they were going to my friend jumped over me and then they didn't. and i was like "wow".
and look at me just rambling a lot to you guys. and yeah this subject (my -ex- best friend) has been torturing me more than never and it's terrible.
well next week we don't have class the whole week, so i'll just see if i write something.
but i'm thinking about going to my cousin's house to "rest my mind" a little.
so yeah, if you read everything thank you, and i'm definitely gonna try my best to make a chapter for you that read everything.
bye

and oh, i don't think i'm deleting this anyway