Guilty Desires [18+]

Chapter three

******Y/n's POV *******

    Your alarm had finally went off, it seems like you only slept for about two hours, then again your mind felt like it hasn't shut off since last night with Emily. Today was the day you were absolutely dreaded the most,realizing  you had to face Emily sooner or later about the events and whether you liked it or not.

   The both of you both surpassed friendship thanks to the mix of alcohol and the feelings you both had for each other.it was now 7:50 in the morning and you didn't need to be at work til 8:30a.m.So you headed to take a shower and get yourself together, but you decided to call up Spencer first to see if he was willing to give you a ride to work, only because you felt like shit from the night prior and you didn't feel like driving.

     

       He was like a brother to you even though he was a few years older than you, you guys instantly clicked your first day you guys met, plus you two were the youngest there.He knew how fucked up everyone was from last night, since basically him and Hotch were basically the only ones who were sober last night.

      He politely agreed and said he'd be there in 15 minutes,So you had to rush your shower and be fully ready by the time he got here. You wore a maroon colored pencil skirt with a white button up shirt tucked in, finishing your makeup and throwing your hair up in a loose ponytail.

 

        You heard your doorbell ring and to your surprise,Spencer brought you your favorite iced coffee and favorite donuts from your favorite place down the street."I bought your favorite treats, only because you are my favorite profiler, plus I figured after the way you felt sick last night ,I knew you needed it",which brought a smile to your face.

        It made the start to your day better and you already forgot about facing Emily that is until you guys pulled into the parking lot at work.You still had the unopened text message from Emily, how you wanted to explain yourself for last night but you knew you had to just leave things be for now.

         It was now 8:25 ,You both got out his car ,walking into the the doors of the BAU, you seen the faces of your co-workers ,all but one,Emily.She was usually 10 minutes early but no one heard from her after everyone left the bar,which kind of scared you if anything happened to her.

        About 30 minutes later Emily came in and honestly, she probably had a horrible hangover but she still looked so amazing.Yet you tried to avoid eye contact with her because you weren't really ready to fully explain yourself for running out on her after having your tongue down her throat.You set your things on your desk, unfortunately her desk was right across from yours and you were hoping she wouldn't say anything to you at all, at least for now.

  

    You were still a bit behind on your paperwork so it gave you time to stay to yourself until you heard Emily throw her stuff down with a large coffee in her hand.She looked so miserable yet you could also tell she was upset and you really wanted to apologize for your actions but maybe she regretted it and is hating herself for it yet.
 

    Around 1:30p.m you had finished your coffee from this morning, the BAU doesn't have the best coffee but it gets you through the long days.As you were filling your cup up, you heard footsteps walking up behind you and you went to turn around and it was Emily.It looked like she wanted to say something to you but immediately stopped herself.

You tried walking away from her, she immediately grabbed your wrist, looking at you with her beautiful brown eyes ,"Y/n, we really need to talk." she said.You broke from her release and you knew deep down, things definitely needed to be discussed about last night.

       Ultimately you gave her the only excuse you could think of, "can we talk about this later,Em?I don't have time to talk right now,I have work to do." She looked heartbroken and it saddened you seeing her like this but you needed space and time to think things over;to think about what you needed to say and not what she wanted to hear.

       You kept thinking that could this all really be just a crush and acted on impulses or you possibly have a chance with Emily.Now just realized you may have ruined your chance with her because the way you've acted towards her.

   

   It rolled around 5:30p.m and as you finished everything,Spencer came up to you asking if you were ready to head out.you nodded and as you were leaving you seen Emily still at her desk working on paperwork from a previous case.You both happened to look at each other and half smiled, knowing you possibly hurt her.

       This whole situation just made you feel like a shitty person.Spencer dropped you off and as soon as you got inside it started to rain, so you decided to make yourself baked chicken and some green beans and have a little movie night for yourself.

    

       It was a little past 9:30p.m. when you heard knocking at the door.You opened the door to find a very drunken Emily Prentiss, you were confused as to why she showed up to your doorstep.You could obviously tell she had been drinking due to the way she was trying to hold herself up and the smell of alcohol coming from her mouth.

      "Emily what are you doing here late at night, and in the rain and especially drinking? what the hell?" She could barely stand up, so you helped her inside and sat her down on your couch. "Y/n,I really wanted to see you, you've been on my mind a lot today and...i ugh."

     Before she could even finish her sentence, you could see it looked like she was gonna be sick, luckily you had a little trash can near.You immediately gave it to her, holding her hair back after what seemed like forever, throwing up all the contents of the alcohol in her system.

  

      
    You let her sleep in your bed for the night,
while you took the couch but you made sure to check up on her every so often to make sure she was okay.By the time it was time for you to wake up, you went to check on Emily and she was still sleeping.She looked like an angel when she slept.

     You decided to step out and go get something to eat for her to help her second hangover in a row.You felt bad due to the fact that you knew she was drinking because of you.So you pulled out some Advil, a bottle of water with her phone near her and left her a note that you'd be out to get her food before heading into work.

   

      By the time you got back Emily was already dressed and ready,you had  bought her ,her favorite breakfast of all time, chicken minis from Chick-fil-A. She silently thanked you, yet she realized what happened last night,but again we chose not talk about it.

      The car ride to work was completely silent, all you could hear is the radio playing.You wanted to say something to her but you decided it would be best to leave her alone at this point.When you both got to work, you guys learned there was a case up in Denver, possible two killers out murdering innocent families, which you took the hardest because children were involved.

     

       The team was at the round table, talking of how to pursue the case, after a good thirty minutes discussion and Hotch's famous line of "wheels up in 30.",you were trying to pick up, but you felt eyes in you. It was Emily looking at you for a good while before you left,walking away to avoid more of the awkward tension between you two.

   You guys were on the plane, not for long since it was an hour flight. So you decided it was best to sit by Spencer and play chess with him so that Emily could stay off you mind for awhile.The team headed to the police station to try and set up.

       Hotch sent you,Morgan and Rossi to the victim's houses, Prentiss and Reid to the morgue, and JJ and Hotch stay at the station to try to deliver the profile.It was getting super late and the team couldn't find more information, so Hotch decided it was best to head to the hotel for the night.

        Unfortunately you were paired up with Emily, which would make things 10x awkward since you guys were barely speaking at this point.It would take a miracle for you guys to talk again, you honestly missed talking to her, but if this is what she wanted then, so be it.