Guilty Desires [18+]

Chapter Four.

********Emilys POV**********

        It was 8:15 in the morning, you forgot to set your alarm last night just because you were too upset to really do anything.All you could think about was being with Y/n that night and how you'd do it over again.My car was still in the shop so I called a cab to work since Y/n was all i had left.

       I didn't feel like taking a shower, so I put on some work clothes;grabbing my go bag and left when the cab was here.The cab finally pulled up to the BAU, arriving at 9Am, I just knew Hotch was gonna be pretty pissed but I didn't care.

  

     As I was walking through the doors, the faces of my co workers were becoming clearer, one in familiar,it was Y/n.She looked so good but I knew we needed to talk things out.As I put my stuff down on the desk which was across from hers, I decided to leave her alone at least until no one else would be around.

     Around 1:30, Y/n got up to the coffee pot so I decided that this would be the perfect time to talk.She looked so perfect, as she turned around her face instantly dropped as if she seen a ghost.

   

      She tried walking away from me, I pulled her closer to me, "Y/n,we need to talk" with saddened eyes trying not cry.Apparently the only excuse she could give me was " another time, I'm busy" which I didn't believe at all.This all felt like my heart was breaking into many pieces and there was nothing I could do to fix things.

        So I stayed to myself until it was time to leave, I truly felt miserable, so lonely and Y/n was the last thing I wanted to lose.I got home at 6:30pm, I found a bottle of whiskey that was calling my name, about two thirds of the bottle was gone around 8:45.I was drunk but I vividly remember showing up at Y/n's house around 9 or so after that was a blur.

      I woke up in Y/n's bed, feeling like complete shit both physically and mentally.She left me a note saying she'd be back, leaving me with some water with some advil.She was so good to me after all what's happened between us.I got up and dressed, within 10 minutes Y/n showed up my favorite breakfast from Chick-fil-a.

      I was still embarrassed from last night so I just nodded my head and smiled.The way over to work was completely silent and as soon as we got into work Hotch said we had a case.It was in Denver, supposedly two unsubs were killing innocent families and I knew Y/n was sad because kids being involved.

     Everyone boarded the jet, thank god it was just an hour flight.I desperately wanted to sit next to Y/n so we could talk, but she sat with Spencer playing chess.We all headed to the sheriff's station, I'd glance over at Y/n and look away when she looked at me.Hotch had us go into separate teams but all of us couldn't find leads to this so he told us to head back to the hotel and get rest.

    I ended up getting roomed with Y/n, knowing we still weren't talking to each other.The awkward tension was getting worse yet the sexual tension was totally there and you practically could cut it with a knife.

    

       Y/n was sitting on the bed reading a book, so I decided it was now or never to talk about the last two nights events, whether she liked it or not.So I sat next to her on the bed, "what do you want Emily' she asked in an aggravated tone.

     I took my hand in hers and surprisingly she didn't try to move it away.My legs started shaking because of the anxiety I was having just sitting here before her.She started to to be concerned,I could see it in her face.

 

   Before I could even say anything or apologize about the previous situations, Y/n cupped my cheek as I felt her soft lips on mine. For a split second I didn't think that this could be happening to me again at least now.

    Her hands roamed my body trying to pull us as together as much as gravity would let us.In this moment, it was perfect, she's perfect in every sense.My hands around Y/n's throat which seemed to be turning her on so much;this is was everything i could ever want.

Sorry this chapter's kinda short, It has been a long and crazy week.What other stuff would you guys like to happen?