I am broken inside,
I don't want to lie.
but i keep making the same mistakes,
keep putting others first, and it just later on aches.
i want to smile and laugh like others,
but it just hurts.
i keep pretending not to know the truth hoping things will get better,
but i cant keep it up.
i wish i didn't know about the terrible, terrible things you've done,
when will this long night be over? when will i get to see the sun?
would i still have loved you if i never knew?
or would we break apart after we argue?
is what we have really worth me giving up everything i have, everyone i love?
does it even matter if i am hurt?
I don't want to do this, i don't think i am emotionally or mentally capable to do what you wish,
i hope you hear me before i lift my fists.
i am sorry if me loving myself is hurting you,
but not loving myself is hurting me.
i am going to run in the dark all alone from now,
but its going to be better than before coz i know now even during the scariest of times i wont frown.
and that no matter what i'll have an angel looking at me from up above.
if only our love wasn't broken,
and only if could be mended.
i loved us, and even thought it hurt,
i loved our broken love.
