BYAHE NG BUHAY

CHAPTER SIX: SA EROPLANO (ANG PAGTATAPOS)

Ako si Anna. Nandito ako ngayon sa loob ng eroplano. Papunta ng Panama. Natanggap akong Investigative Journalist doon. Magandang opportunity. Pero hindi ito ang dahilan ng pagpunta ko doon.

Naaalala ko pa rin ang best friend ko. Si Sammy. Bata pa lang magkaibigan na kami. Noong maliit pa lang ako at nadapa ako, iyak ako nang iyak, si Sammy ang lumapit sa akin, binigyan ako ng white rose, at pinahid ang mga luha ko sa pisngi. Sinabi niyang pwede na ulit bumangon sa pagkakadapa para maglaro kasama siya.

Noong high school ako, namatay ang Papa ko. Iyak ako nang iyak. Si Sammy ang nag-abot sa akin ng isang white rose telling me that everything would be alright, that I am not alone. That the rose is meant for me, for my dad, and for my family.

Noong college ako, may masugid akong manliligaw. Si Greg. Pero sinabi ko sa kanya na I cannot be his girlfriend. Because my heart is already owned by someone else. Ang problema lang, hanggang kaibigan lang ang tingin niya sa akin. Greg was concerned, hugged me and kissed me on the cheek, telling me that he hopes this guy would come to his senses. Iyak ako nang iyak noon. Si Sammy ang lumapit sa akin, inabutan ako ng white rose, and told me that I could always start fresh. Start new. Afterwards, I never saw Sammy again. Hindi na rin siya nakipagusap sa akin. I don’t know why but it broke me into pieces.

Kahapon, I finally had the courage to text Sammy and tell him that I am leaving. He gave me a white rose. Telling me that it is a sign that he is thinking of me. That it is a sign of remembrance. Iyak lang ako nang iyak. Pero si Sammy ang nagpangiti sa akin. Tinanong niya ako kung gusto kong maging masaya. Tinanong ko siya kung gusto niya akong pigilan. Pero binabalik lang niya sa akin ang mga tanong ko. If only he knew what is inside of me.

Yes. I want to be happy, Sammy. And I can only be happy with you. Pigilan mo akong umalis. Huwag mo akong payagan. These are the things that are troubling me earlier. But what forced me to finally leave are the final words Sammy whispered to my ears…

SAMMY: I will always be your friend. Your best friend. Your closest friend. Always.

And all I wanted was for me to be more than your friend. More than your best friend. More than your closest friend.

We could be all these things naman di ba? But why not as your girlfriend? Why can’t we be together? Ayaw mo ba? So now, I’m only your friend.

At least I have that. I’d rather be your friend than not to have any relationship with you at all. Pero sayang. Sayang.

If only…

END.

KABUANG MUCH. Roll Bacco speaks. :D