dsmp angst oneshots

manipulation pt2

Fanart by ccelinavv on twitter

hey people of wattpad that read sad shit about boo.

This is a part two!!
The first part is before this so go read that or this won't really make sense haha

Also im considering doing a face reveal when we hit 6k reads. If i do it please dont sexualize me. I am a minor and it makes me uncomfortable.

Im not really gonna vent in this one but the manipulative parts may be venting. The part with sewerslide are not vents! I would never vent about something i haven't done. That is very disturbing if you do. And very very offensive to those who have tried/have committed it :( stay safe pls

Anyways major trigger warning!!
•sewerslide/thoughts
•major SH
•manipulation
•body dysphoria
•Lots of hate and rude comments

If you are not comfortable with reading this or these are your triggers please for the love of satan, SKIP THIS. I would absolutely hate if my writing got someone to relapse. Please stay safe for ranboo :)
Go drink some water before you read this. I am before writing. Eat a snack too. You need to try.
I have my water pog.
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I wake up around 9:30 in the morning and get on my pc and do all my online school shit.

I slightly fall asleep but get awoken by the teacher calling my name

'James?'

I unmute

'Here'

I remute.

'Only 7 more hours of this hell the i can sleep then stream' i thought as i was doing a essay on a murderer that i was not interested in.

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Its around 7:35 pm. I finished up my online classes and was setting up my stream.

I stream for around 4-5 hours at a time. Starting around 7-10 at night. It can be draining especially since i have online classes. I want to take a break but ive been streaming everyday since 2 months ago and i would absolutely love to make it to 4 months atleast. Its not very god for my health but i love my fans and their lives matter most to me. I love them all. Ive tried to commit suicide multiple times but ended up thinking about how my fans would react. 'Famous Twitch streamer, James _____, also known as Ranboo committed suicide last night and was found in his bathroom.' Wow that is really something aint it.

I look at my chat asking where i am. And hi's and hello's like usual but theres way more fucking hate.

'What the fuck..?' I murmur.

'Why do people watch you??'

'Ewwww'

'Kys'

'Nobody wants you here. Not even your stupid 'fans' god youre so dumb'

'Ranboo. You deserve absolutely nothing that you have. Youre stealing tubbo from tommy. You are a disgrace to this smp and us fans. I fucking hate you. I wish you were never born. Kill. Your. Self.'

That last one really hurt. I usually don't listen to hate but that one got me. I unmute. 'Hey chat!! Sorry i was called down by my mom. Ill be back in a minute!!'

I walk to my bathroom and grab the blade in my mirror cabinet thing. I slice one then two then three then four etc..

It hurt but felt good and the same time.