Protector (EN)

Chapter 39

Julis view (My disappearance)

I could still see how a black one opened up over me and swallowed me up. Then I was simply gone. It was dark around me. I must have apparently lost my consciousness. Or was I dead?

Anyway, I was free of Dad's metal suit. I could move freely and I felt no more pain.

Suddenly a light opened up. Like I was in a tunnel and I could finally reach the end of the tunnel. I was dead, wasn't I? At least everyone talks about a light opening up when you want to leave the tunnel.

I didn't move toward the light because I wasn't ready to die. I just stood there rooted to the spot when all of a sudden the light pulled me toward it. It graduated me. I panicked and screamed, but no one was there to hear. So I guess I had to leave.

When I was in the light, it was so bright that I held my arm in front of my face. Then I heard a childish laugh.

"Happy 5th birthday my sweet" I heard a female voice and the childish laughter didn't stop.

Slowly I lowered my arm and could make out a woman who was bringing a cake to the table. A little girl with brown long hair was sitting there and was happy. Around the little girl was other children. It was a memory.

I remembered that day. It was my 5th birthday. It was so far the best birthday with my mother, which I celebrated. I was standing in our old house, in which I did not live long because I had to flee.

I was allowed to celebrate this birthday without Jonas, because he had been away with some of his friends at that time and came only a few days later. On this day I was also allowed to invite my friends from kindergarten. I was very happy.

Then I looked at a mother. How I wish I could tell her now that I need her. Will I ever see her again? Will I see her today? When I saw my mum, I was ready to leave my life behind. My mum always gave me love. And in my life I felt so much suffering and pain.

"Mum...." I whispered as she just stood next to me and still couldn't see or hear me. Just then everything disappeared and I was in another place. A different memory.

I was in Stark Tower. This was a day before I didn't see my father for many years. We were sitting on the couch having a good time. We watched my favorite movies while eating lots of snacks.

"Juli? Who is that?" my father asked me at the time. I looked at him with amusement and then answered.

"That's Peter Pan. He is a boy who never wanted to grow up. He lives on the island of Neverland and leads lost boys."

"Well, he has a nice life. Lives on his own island and it looks like he can even fly" he said a bit surprised.

"He has an enemy who is a pirate. And Peter can fly because he has a little fairy as a friend. He can fly with the help of fairy dust" I added. He looked at me and laughed. I laughed too. I then threw a pillow in his face. That was also a nice memory.

Then that too disappeared and I then found myself in the home of my then foster parents. They lived in Dallas, Texas. The doorbell rang. I came out of my room, ran up the stairs, and then opened the door. I was 16 years old at the time. At the door was my best friend Dean. Dean Collins. He had dark blond hair and green eyes. At the time, everyone thought we were in love, which I couldn't deny, but I had been afraid that he would grow on me too much and I would lose him too. He had even asked me, but I told him I had no feelings for him. He was really good looking.

"Hey, Juli. Want to try out the new game then?" he asked me. I loved playing viedo games and he was the perfect play partner for it. It was always so much fun with him.

"Yes, Dean. Come on in. I can't wait to try out the game. We've been waiting for this for so long" I answered him. We then went to my room together and played until it got dark and he had to leave again. I loved this time together with him. I was also very happy that we remained friends despite our feelings.

Suddenly everything around me became bright. I stood as if in a white room. Hearing my mother's voice behind me, I quickly turned around and stared at her.

"Juli. You're not done yet. But your body isn't responding. And your mind is slowly giving up too. But Juli you have to wake up. You always have a reason to smile, to be happy" she said in a soft and loving voice. A tear rolled down.

"Mum, I miss you" I said bitterly and started to cry more.

"I know, my darling. But the others need you too" she soothed.

"I don't know how. I don't know how to wake up. I don't even know what happened" I whispered more.

"You have to let go. You have to always remember that I'm always with you and that everyone else is your friend and always there just like I am. And you should also know that you are safe and I was able to help you today" she explained to me.

From the other side, my dad appeared.

"Juli, we need you. We are all devastated. We all think you are already dead, but you are still alive. You just need to wake up" he then said. "We don't know where you are" he added.

And from another side Dean stepped forward.

"Juli, you have to learn to trust others. Stop doing without. It will never make you happy. Accept things too, no matter what price they may cost. The important thing is that you were happy," he said.

I didn't know myself where I was at that moment, but they were all right.

Suddenly Loki stepped forward. He said nothing, but asked me to follow him. I turned to my mom and hugged her one last time and then I started walking and followed Loki.

The further I followed him, the more I moved away from my mother. It became dark around us and suddenly I could open my eyes.

I looked around and not far from me lay the suit, completely destroyed. I straightened up and could see that I was in a meadow. Was this also a dream? I then stood up and saw that the junkyard was not far from me. How is this possible? Did my mom save me as she said she could help me today?

I looked at the sky and could finally smile, after the thought after her. It always made me sad, but I was supposed to let go slowly. And I did. And it helped me.

Now I just have to find the others. I started limping in that direction. I went in the direction of the burning building. I hope they are all well and we could defeat the enemy too.