Ebony's point of view
" why did I agree to do this" I ask Chloe as she is lying on my bed watching me get ready.
"Because you wanted to help your friends" my sister says with a smile.
"I missed him" I say with a frown
"eb you need to move on. When you both broke up you were both broken. You both agreed to breakup for a reason. But maybe you both have done the wrong thing" Chloe suggests raising her eyebrows.
" I don't think either of us can handle all that again. He is trying to hide is pain is sadness I can tell" I say sitting down at the bottom of the bed.
"We made each other unhappy" I say with a sigh. Chloe shakes her head.
"You and I both know that is not true. You were both at your happiest when your together. I saw how sad he was the other night but when he was with you the sadness was slowly going away" Chloe says bringing me into a hug.
" you need to do what's right for you ebs" Chloe says with a small smile.
"Follow you heart" she adds
" with everything that happened, uni, tour the hate. It was just to much. Missing him. The stress the fallouts. I don't think i can do all that again" I say fiddling with my fingers.
"Maybe it will be different this time" Chloe says putting her chin on my shoulder.
I turn to look at her.
" Eb's you were together for two and a half years. Your going to care about him. Your going to have strong feelings for him." Chloe adds I nod.
"I just don't know what to do" I shrug with a sigh
"Ebony you will do the right thing. You both choose the right thing to do." Chloe says with a small smile.
"It's so easy for Lucee and Connor. How's it so easy for them. How's it so easy for you and Ethan. What did we do that was so wrong" I say tears forming in my eyes.
"Don't you dare start crying. Listen every relationship is different. If you both still love each other it will all work out" Chloe says wiping the tear that is falling from my eye.
"Plus I know you only ever wanted Brad. That's why you have never gone on the dates with the boys i have set up on" Chloe jokes making us both chuckle.
But what if we get back together and it just blows up in our faces like the last time. I don't think I can handle all the hate, the stress, the fights, missing
him when he is on tour. It was all just too much.
THROWBACK
" I cant do this anymore" I shout throwing my essay on the floor. Bringing a pillow to your face. Tears falling from my eyes as I begin to cry into my pillow.
University has been really stressful I haven't had anytime time for anything. To eat. All I have seem to been doing this last while is cry be stressed. I'm so sick of it. Brad is on tour I have hardly spoken to him. I have has left a few messages and missed calls on his phone but I haven't had a chance to call him back. Why would I want to call him and ruin him having fun on tour ? This is what always ends up in an argument. Us both being tired, stressed and we take it out on each other.
Brad is really great he is always good at comforting me when I'm stressed. But right now he isn't here. I haven't had time to hear his voice. I haven't had time to ask him how he is doing. All that is in my head is uni work. I'm stressed drained and I'm missing my boy who is across the world.
Snapping out of my thoughts I look down to see my phone is ringing. Brad. I pick my phone up and take a deep breath.
"Hey" I say into the phone.
"Hey you finally answered" brad jokes making my stomach drop. Is he annoyed ?
" I'm sorry I just have been so busy" I say in a panic.
" what did I tell you if you were stressed to call me. I will always be here it doesn't matter where in the world I am" brad says softly into the phone.
" but it does though brad. I don't want to have to phone you and ruin your time when I'm stressed out my mind" I snap but regret it as soon as the words leave my voice.
"I'm your boyfriend it doesn't matter. This is why I'm here" brad says softly.
" but your not here" I snap
"Ebs" brad says with a sigh.
"I wish I was with you too" brad adds
"Listen I'm gonna go you go have fun. Say hi to everyone" I say tears forming in my eyes. Hearing his voice and him being so far away makes it so much harder.
" Ebony I wish you would just talk to me" he says with a sigh.
"Just go have fun" i say I hang up and throw my phone on the bed and I let the tears fall.
I miss him so much
Ebony's point of view
I snap out of my thoughts. That night I cried my self to sleep. Brad tried to phone me all night. But I ignored his calls. I felt like if I heard his voice again it would make me cry even more. I just let things get on top of me and I took it out on Brad and didn't want his time on tour to be ruined. But that's exactly what happened because he got annoyed I wasn't answering and got worried. So the next day we had another argument. But brad was the one that sounded tried and stressed. It was like a circle and there was no breaking it.....
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