Tattoos and Tails l.s

9

{ this is like Harry's pov of They're convo on the couch k? k. }

-- Harry's pov --

I should really go talk to louis about my behavior this past week. I just don't know what to tell him because I'm afraid that if I tell him how I really feel about him, it'll go horribly. And if that happens, I'll be alone again and I-I just don't know what to do. I need to go out there though. I'm in his room because I was taking a nap, but I've been up for about 30 minutes now. Oh well. Here goes nothing I guess.

I walk slowly out towards the living room. As soon as he comes into view I get this weird flipping feeling in my stomach. Also known as butterflies which is something I felt before. Let's not talk about that.

I slowly walk over to the couch and he's noticed me by now.

"Hey sleepy head, how was your nap?" He scoots over, I'm guessing for me to sit by him. I do.

"Good like always. What time do you work today?" I snuggle into his side. Physically I've been very close to Lou all this week. He's like the biggest source of happiness in my life right now because Niall seems to have forgotten about me.

"9 love. Can I ask you something?" He says and I think I have an idea about what he's going to ask.

"Sure loubear." I snuggle deeper into his side for comfort and security. I know it sounds stupid but it is what it is.

"Harry whats wrong?" There it is. "You've been acting different this week and I just want to be able to help you." God damnit I know he's trying to help me. I just can't open up to people and I did with him. This isn't okay. And I feel like it's about to happen again.

I move away from his side, sitting up Indian style. And here it comes, where I spill all my feelings for no reason to this perfect man. I sit there for a few seconds, collecting my thoughts.

"Lou I'm scared. I'm scared that you'll leave me." If he did I would die. I have feelings for him, bad. "I'm scared of what I'm feeling inside because it's never happened before." This is a lie it has happened before, just never this quick or severe. "I'm scared that I'll be rejected. I'm scared that I'm going to be stranded again." I couldn't take that. Not again. "I'm scared that the one time I'm cared for and accepted, will be ripped out from under me and I'll have nothing again. I'm scared that I'll lose Ni and Liam and you. Niall has been there for me for 3 years. This week was 3 years and he hasn't said anything about it." This is one of the biggest reasons. "Wednesday was the day my family left me and also the day I found Niall. He's been so wrapped up with Liam that he didn't even notice. I'd like to think that this is my family now." I feel like it is. Like we all except each other and hopefully love each other. "That we all love each other and we're all here for each other but I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that it's all gonna be ripped away from me again but this time I feel like it would hurt worse because this time I'd be losing you." Well fuck me in the ass with a damn marshmallow lit on fire I did not mean to say that last bit out loud.

I didn't even notice my hand is slapped over my mouth till I have to move it. I can see tears form in the corners of his eyes and I'm shocked.

"Hey, I would never, never in a million years ever even think of leaving you on purpose. Ever. I know that is true for Liam and Niall too Harry. Trust me no one would ever reject you, and if they did you tell them fuck themselves and come tell us, or me, about it and we can just forget them. They didn't or don't know what they're missing anyway love. We will talk to Niall about forgetting Wednesday and figure it out ok? Don't be worried about that. This, all of us, we are family now. We are and will forever be family. No matter what. I don't care If Liam moves to Asia, Niall moves to Africa, you move to Antartica, and I move to Australia, we will always, always be family Harry and you can always count on us. Especially me ok? And if I lost you now, well I don't know what I'd do because I'm attached love." He says back and I cant help the tears that form I my eyes. They roll down my cheeks and I can't stop them.

"Oh god, is it something I said? I'm so sorry harry I was trying to help. oh god." No no no he made me happy, he made me feel accepted. He pulls me to his chest and I let out a sob. I'm happy crying.

"It's--it's everything you said l-lou. Thank you so much for all of this." I stutter out in between sobs. I wrap my arms around his middle and he sighs in what I hope is relief.

"Oh god okay. Okay. Thank god. I thought I had made it worse. But why are you crying?" He asks.

"Because that-that helped so much. Lou I-I don't- can I tell you something that you can't tell anyone? Like ever or else I'll never tell you another thing and I'll never tell you anything ever. Promise to not say anything."

"Yes Harry I promise. Now what is it?" Shit shit shit. Now I need to tell him. Here goes nothing.

"I-- I think I like you. Like more than just being family or friends." I spit it out and it's quiet for a little while.

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Damn I suck ass. I'm so sorry just forget my schedule. 😪🔫 picture to the side just