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Entry 4

✎ Hitoka Shinso

Dear Diary,

                    I don't know what to do. Dabi and Shigaraki are planning something awful. I've done something awful. I am awful. He told me to. It was a threat in disguise, I could tell. Maybe he meant it that way.

Either way, threat or not, bad things would've happened. And I'm selfish, I know that. I'm also a coward.

But I'm alive. I'm not alone.

No matter how foolish this comradery may be, it's all I have.

Toga insists that I come with her on her 'missions', but even though she could kill me at any given moment, I cannot bring myself to join her. It would be too much, especially for me. No matter how far I go, how many sins I commit, I promised myself I would never become like her.

Once I tried to leave, a few weeks ago. I tried to use my quirk on Toga, and I can still hear her taunting voice in my ear.

"Oh, Toka," she giggled, "try that again and I'll have your head."

I couldn't control her, for whatever reason. It didn't work. She repelled it. I don't know how.

Now, I feel trapped, and I cannot leave here. I cannot escape this hell I willingly entered. 

Now they want me to go to the palace.

They want me to kill the king.

                                                                              Hitoka