#𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙂𝙖𝙢𝙚 [ 𝗇𝖼𝗍 𝗌𝗁𝗂𝗉𝗌 ]

Chapter 7 | Breaking The Promise

tw: bad manager, mentions of dea**, shaming (bad names/words), self-harm, bl00d, abuse (not to a main character but still there)

... | Jungwoo's Point Of View

I was able to dance this alright a couple weeks ago but why can't I do it anymore? An hour had passed and my thin legs were trembling slightly. I just wanted Lucas at that moment. We hadn't seen each other much as we had to practise a lot these days.

Another hour passed and my legs could barely hold themselves as I had some difficulties breathing too. I kept messing up the simplest moves or made the smallest mistakes and we'd start again. How was I supposed to last here for another 6 hours!

2 more hours passed and this time I missed a beat at the start of the choreo which led me to fall on the grown and hurt my ankle and the choreographer who was an alpha, stood 1.9m which was very intimidating, came up to me and snapped.

"WHAT IS WITH YOU KIM JUNGWOO!!! YOU'RE LITERALLY SO USELESS. WHY DID SM EVEN WANT YOU. YOU JUST... FRUSTRATE ME SO MUCH. YOU KNOW WHAT JUST LEAVE!!! GO DIE!!!! YOU CAN'T EVEN DO THE SIMPLEST MOVES WITHOUT MESSING UP. EVERYONE HERE IS 20 TIMES BETTER THAN YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE A "LEAD" DANCER. SCREW THAT AND JUST LEAVE."

The older said while slapping my face again. I fell to the floor and the alpha kicked me. He dragged me out of the room and threw me outside after locking the door. I could see the faint movement of my members trying to help me and get outside the room but the strong male teacher shoved them away from the door, unable for them to get out. I appreciate they tried.

I stood up and limped over to the bathroom. I could see Lucas practising in the room next door and I just smiled at him. I slammed the bathroom door and cried. I was so useless. The teacher was right but I had to stay in this game for Lucas. I couldn't break our promise. I loved Lucas too much.

2 Months Later | Jungwoo's Point Of View

I was now 3 months pregnant and Lucas didn't know. I often had to wear bigger clothes, looked fat and ugly, had more toilet breaks and got tired way easier. The same thing would often happen to me every day at practise as the choreographer wanted to make sure I could do it perfectly. I was often forced to take my free time or extra time and substitute it with this.

It only caused me more stress and I knew it wasn't good for the child. I also broke Lucas' promise... I sat in the bathroom with a blade in my hand while making tattoo's in my skin. I made one of a rose and one that said my name. It was quite painful so I yelped often while the blade went further into my skin. I'm sorry Lucas.. but hopefully you don't find out about this.

... | Nobody's Point Of View

Jaehyun, Taeyong and Doyoung got much closer and were basically in separatable. The noises that came out from their room some nights also explained a lot.

Jisung and Chenle also got a lot closer and Chenle slowly got better and slowly stopped having as many hallucinations although one in a while he'd see hate comments and do bad stuff to his skin which Jisung worried about.

Xiaojun and Hendery were also doing fine. The omega was still scared and whimpered a lot but Hendery tried to make his "beta" feel comfortable.

Lucas and Jungwoo were a bit distant during the days but Lucas wanted to make it up since the both had like OPPOSITE time tables.

The Next Night | Lucas's Point Of View

It was pretty late and I took Jungwoo home from the studio. Today I was going to watch a movie with him while cuddling in my bed. WinWin was out doing some errands and practising so he wouldn't be home for a while, plus, he wouldn't mind because Jungwoo and him have gotten close.

I was pulling Jungwoo in a cuddle and realised he must be hot since he was wearing a sweater and it was quite a hot day. I tried to take it off but he didn't let me. I grabbed his hand and he yelped with was a bit strange.

I had more strength than him so I managed to pull of the fluffy jumper to look down and see a lot of blood and cuts on Jungwoo's wrist. "Yah! Kim Jungwoo... I'm not mad... I'm upset okay? Tell me what happened? Why did you do that? Are you okay? You know to ignore haters."

"L-Lucas... I'm sorry. I didn't mean to break the promise..." The "beta" sniffled.

"Shhh. It's okay. Just tell me what happened 'k?"

Jungwoo told me about all the problems he was having with dance and the choreographer which explained the shouting from next door. I pulled him in for a hug until he fell asleep and I brought him to his bed and tucked him in. He looked like a baby angel when sleeping.

1 Month Later | Jungwoo's Point Of View

I was now 4 months pregnant and the morning sickness had stopped. Although the choreographer was still strict on me and I had to disrupt all the time to go to the bathroom... things were fine. I stopped hurting myself for Lucas. Oh how I was whipped for this male.

... | Xiaojun's Point Of View

I was out to go to the shops to run some errands which weren't very important but I just wanted to get out of the dormitory. It had strong alphas scents everywhere. All of the other members were either in the dance studio or the company building. As I was walking along the streets I smelt an extraordinary sweet scent. It smelt like a mixed berry something.

I ran around the corner to see a woman getting kicked by her maybe "mate" while she was in heat. I hid behind the wall so the alpha male wouldn't see me. I had a weakness for those in pain and I always wanted to help so that's what I was going to do. The only problem was I can't get too close to the omega otherwise I'd go into heat too.

I was thinking about what I would do when the lady who looked just a little older than me hugged onto alphas who passed by. I went up to the lady and asked her what was wrong, though I already knew. "h-help me," she said while panting and trying to hug me, getting to my scent gland.

I felt sorry for the lady. I have never experienced a heat as I've been unhealthy, taking suppressants. I ran off to the shops which were really close and got omega suppressants for the lady while she yelped in pain and asked where I was going. A few minutes passed and I came back with the suppressants in my hand. I went up to the lady, "have you ever taken suppressants?"

"N-No. I-I don't want suppressants. I want you."

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hello! this is chapter 7.

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recommended song: Panorama - IZ*ONE

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thanks, see you in 3 days!