Maybe - Cedric diggory

Chapter 11

 It's Still Adora's POV:

It's almost December.

And I am absolutely screwed.

The one topic that is on my mind is the same one that has invaded my thoughts for the past month. 

Him.

The past month, I haven't spent a day without seeing him, him and his golden locks, his sweet personality. 

Shat.

" Emilyyyy" I cry.

" What" She responds, clearly not fully engaged in the conversation.

"How could I have let this happen?" I ask, laying half off my bed, my hair drapes off onto the floor.

" Let what happen?" She asked finally looking up from the book that she hasn't been able to tear her eyes away from fro the pass while, she discards it on the side of her bed as she looks at me with a pushy look.

" I shouldn't have let this happen" I say.

" My goodness Adora, what is making you so upset?" She asks a little bit annoyed.

" It's stupid" I say and look over at my slightly pushy friend who gives me a look that I swear if looks could kill I'd be six feet under by this point.

" Come on, this is what friends are for just talk it out with me, it'll make you feel better" She says sweetly.

" It's Cedric" I say.

" What about him? Oh no, you guys are like the cutest couple, you can't break up" She say as she gets up and heads over and sits beside me on my bed.

" No, No it's not that, it's just-" I say, having a loss for words on how to describe what I'm feeling.

" What is it?" She asks, genuinely concerned for me.

" Well it kinda hard to explain" I say.

" Try" She says gently.

" Um, well, I don't know if it's necessarily a bad thing, more so I just can't believe I let it happen" I say and sigh quietly.

" It's like all of my thoughts revolve around him, he's always in my mind, I seriously cannot get him out and I don't know what to do" I say slightly panicked. Suddenly, Emily bursts into laughter.

" What are you laughing at?" I ask scowling at her. She continues to laugh for another 5 minutes and I continue my act of scowling.

"Seriously Em, What is it?" I ask still a little upset that she was laughing at my suspense.

" Are you trying to tell me that your falling for Cedric Diggory?" She laughs again.

" I don't know!" I say loudly.

"Well are you?" She pushes.

" Maybe.." I say.

" How do I make it go away?" I ask her back.

" You can't" She laughs.

" Really? So I am completely screwed" I say and slump down over my bed.

" What's so bad about falling for someone Adora?" She asks.

" I dunno, I guess I just always have this fear in the back of my mind" I say.

" What of?" She asks.

" Just that I'm not good enough, that he will leave me for the popular girls , with their long brunette hair and their gorgeous hazel eyes, the ones who are confident, the ones with gorgeous figures and pretty faces, how do I compete with that?" I ask as my eyes begin watering.