One Night... Stand?

Escape

I stayed with Connor for a while, shortly after our classes had ended. We sat at a nearby bench, which was nice. I'm bad at putting in words but for the moment, I just wanted us to be us and not be bothered by anyone. We would do this pretty often, when we want to think about nonsense, talk about our future, university, our problems, how our day had been. This was perfect.

Of course it had to be ruined by his afternoon practice and as he headed out, I kind of felt lonely. We may have shared a kiss before leaving me by myself, but I don't really like this feeling. It's disturbing every inch of my soul. I needed it to be filled. Frankly speaking, I can't possibly live if Connor had decided to leave me, and neither will he as he said.

I took a few deep breaths before I forced myself up and walked towards the carpark. Surprised on how nearly empty the whole place was, I sat down on the side, waiting patiently for Roy. God this is definitely one of my biggest mistakes that I've done in a while.

I wished to run as far and as fast as I could. I wished that I should not have accepted his invitation. I should not even answered his phone call from last night. I have so many regrets but they are all too late by now, as I saw a white car slowly approaching.

The driver side window lowered revealing douchebag, with a smug clearly plastered on his face. "Hey princess." He greeted smoothly. "Ready to go?"

"Please don't call me princess. I'm not even one. Also I only agreed to this because you wanted to make up on what you did yesterday." I walked towards his car and sat down on the passenger side. "Where is Grace anyways? Isn't she supposed to be with you right now?"

"She has volleyball practice and I told her that I might not be able to see her tonight because of homework. So I got myself an excuse." He said, as we drove away to... "By the way, where are you dragging me?"

"Somewhere fun." He smiled at me. Okay I'm about to make myself clear here: HE HAS A BEAUTIFUL SMILE THAT I CANNOT RESIST, LIKE HOT DAMN SMUG THAT CAN KILL. I can't really explain but for some weird reason, I did like that aspect of him. I wanted that smile everywhere posted on my bedroom walls and I could just stare at them and be satisfied!

Embarrassed, I turned away from him and leaned on the window, my arm resting over the side. Am I worried that he's going drive me away from home? Yep, I sure am. Am I scared that wherever he'll take me, I might be in danger? Double yep! Will he do something stupid once we get to our destination? There's no doubt in that. But then again, what's a little adventure, right?

Okay, I don't like being adventurous. I'm not a risk-taker and I hate being taken out of my comfort zone. I always play it safe as much as I could. I don't want to get hurt or anyone. It scares the hell out of me, that I would have mild panic attacks.

"You thinking of something, Dale?" Roy asked. He had his eyes on the road, not letting them off. "Just take me wherever, please and let's get this done and over with. I want to go home before it gets too dark."

It didn't take long until we arrived at our destination. "A carnival, really?" I retorted. I'm not really fascinated with carnivals, as much as I hate seeing clowns trying to be goofy. I always thought of them as Pennywise the Clown from It and he always gave me nightmares every time I hear about him. "Yep! I mean you're not scared of clowns are you?"

"Well sort of. But that's fine." I exhaled heavily as he grabbed my hand and lead me to some of the booths. We each bought our own cotton candy since I didn't really want to share one with him, and headed to the carousel. We then rode one and tried to enjoy the moment. It was nice for once in a while that I get to do this. I like to stay in my room in silence, loathing, but a change of scenery can't hurt really.

"Let's go over there!" I pointed to Roy to one of the booths where we had to throw rings on the cones and try to get the highest score. He volunteered himself to throw the rings for me.

"I'm pretty good at this." He said proudly. "Well I wouldn't believe you until I see it." I countered. He smirked at me, confident as the guy behind the booth handed him the rings. He has a minute to get a really high score. He missed a few of them at the beginning but as the clock was fast approaching its end, he had already earned a decent score.

"Here you go, that's your price for getting the second highest score." The man handed him over a small teddy bear. I giggled as he can only manage to get that toy as his price. "Man, I was so sure I can beat the high score."

"Well at least you tried. Now try not to be a sore loser." He then handed me the teddy bear he won. "You can have this one. Keep it."

"Nah, you give it to Grace. She'll probably love that." I said, looking all flustered. Why would he even give me that? "I won this for you." He answered.

"Excuse me?" I shot back at him, waiting for me to take the item from him. Not given much of a choice, I took the teddy bear from him. "T-thanks." Then we fell on an awkward silence.

We continued to walk around until we got to the Ferris Wheel. I hesitated a bit only because I don't like heights as much. It made me feel like I'm about to pee all the time. "You'll be alright." He reassured.

We got in on one and as waited for the ride to turn. Almost halfway through, the ride had stopped. Roy closed the gap between us, as he was sitting right across me. He reached out his hand and placed his hand underneath my face. He then turned my head around and our lips had met. This time it wasn't forced, this time it felt like it was real.

That one feeling that you have when you are comfortable, and not taken out of your comfort zone? Yeah that's where I'm at right now. I knew I should have backed away as soon as I saw him move towards me, but I didn't. I knew I should have broke this kiss sooner but I hesitated. I knew I shouldn't feel comfortable, but I'm too relaxed for this. I knew I shouldn't have trusted him, but I gave in.

We broke apart after we felt the cart shake lightly as it continued moving. This time, I was the one that moved to the other side in a hurry. "Dale... I uh."

"No! You don't know how it feels." I started crying, and waited for the cart to safely stop for me to get off. As the operator opened the door, I left out and ran as fast as I could.

I wanted to escape this feeling. I wanted to forget this. But at the same time... I liked it.