One Night... Stand?

Alone

"We're here." My dad said dryly as he parked our car. "It's going to alright Dale, we're here for you." Mum reached for my hand, rubbing the back of it. Dad only glanced at the rearview mirror, with a concerned look.

Since yesterday, my heartbeat didn't even slow down. I felt uncomfortable. I was never this scared all this time. I am scared of losing him.

I did not even realize that the door right next to me opened, Mum stood there all worried, holding an umbrella. It started to rain again. 

We all went inside our house and she helped me sit down on the couch. Dad had already been inside and he had made us some hot drinks. "What happened to Connor yesterday? We got back into your room and you we crying so hard again and you eventually fainted." Mum asked, holding her drink between her hands.

"I- We-... We had a fight." My heart raced once more, and this time I could not hold it within me as I fell to my knees on the ground and started crying. I had never cried this much before.

"Oh dear." She pulled me in her arms. Mum doesn't say a lot of things but she knew how to comfort me and Keri whenever we feel like shit.

"Give him time, he'll come around it. Connor is a very good guy." She said, her hand rubbing my back. "Just don't do it ever again Dale. I don't want to see you hurt yourself anymore."

I nodded and slowly stood up. "I'm really exhausted, Mum." I murmured.

"Of course. We'll have food ready for you when you wake up." She kissed my cheek and headed to the kitchen. I went up to my room, almost tripping at the doorstep. 

My body crashed on my bed heavily, as hard as a stone. I clutched on my blanket and wiped off my tears away. A picture of me and Connor was on a frame on top of my desk. We went on our first date to the botanical gardens, which was super cheesy of him. I did like that. He was the first to have truly appreciated me and noticed me as a person. Unlike to my old flings. Connor is my first true boyfriend.

Memories flooded in of our happy times, us fighting, making out, feeling loved. Another tear managed to escape. Maybe I should text or at least call him. Even a simple hi could work.

I took my phone out of my backpack and searched for Connor's name.

X Connor <3 

Hi x

I threw my phone of the other side of my bed, not forgetting to turn off Do Not Disturb. This may be bad but what's wrong on expecting for the person you love to get back to you. 

Yet it almost felt like an eternity. Usually I'd get a text back almost instantly, unless he was busy. I knew I told him that we both needed space, and he told me that he had to think things through. I just don't want us to end our relationship. 

How could I have fallen into liking Roy, anyways?"  The thought of Roy again just made me angrier to myself. The person didn't do anything wrong... sort of. I think we both got carried away of our feelings to each other.

Okay, I did not love Roy at all. He knew that, I knew that. I was... drawn to him by his... charm? Sure he was cool and all, that typical bad boy persona. But I should have known better than that. 

"...I know the games you played, Roy." 

I recalled May saying that in front of us. What did she mean by that? Was Roy toying with my feelings all along? Was I that stupid not to realize that? I let myself be controlled and played by someone I barely knew and boy he played it too well.

Before I could get my eyes to shut completely, I heard a commotion. I immediately got up my bed and double checked my phone to see if Connor got back to me. None.

I stepped out of my room, almost tripping on my legs once more before reaching the lounge area. 

"Please just let me talk to him. I need to make sure he's alright." Roy stood and my parents tried to push him out. Our eyes met, his widened as if he noticed the bandage wrapped around my wrists. 

"Dale, why'd you do that?" He took a few steps closer to me but my dad pulled him back before he threw him out. I took a step back, scared that if he might get close to me, I would not know what to do.

"Don't you dare come near him. You've done enough damage to him already. Leave him alone." Dad was already fuming in anger, his fists clenched, ready to swing anytime.

"Dale, c'mon. We need to get things straight once and for all." Roy begged. This time, Dad let his fist fly towards the boy and hit his nose. It didn't take long for some blood to drip off of Roy's nose.

I ran up to him, wiping the blood of his nose with the sleeves of my jacket. Dad looked disgusted, which I ignored, as he blocked the entrance. "We'll just have a talk. I'll be alright Dad. I'll scream if anything happens." But after I said those words he didn't budge a bit.

I led Roy to the garage, he sat at one corner and I stood opposite to him.

"Look Dale, I'm sorry. I should have never pushed you to-"

"Me and Connor are cooling off for a while. He knew." Roy's mouth opened wide in shock. 

"H-how?" He stuttered, unbelieving. 

"Connor's a smart guy. He figured it out when I told him that we needed space." 

"I'm really sorry Dale, I really do." He closed the distance between us but I pushed him off, nearing stumbling down.

"I am at fault here as well. So don't bother apologizing. I don't even know what I'm talking to you right now." I rubbed the back of my neck, my mind was only focused on how I can make it up to Connor.

"If there is anything I can do, just let me know."

"Leave." I said, coldly. "Leave and stay away from me, from Connor, from my life."

He froze, astounded. I felt my heart break but it was the best decision. If I were to fix things with Connor then I have to be cruel to Roy.

He didn't say a word, but turned his back on me and walked away. 

The cold wind blew against me, as his scent was being wafted back at me. But then it slowly faded. My chest began to hurt more. I cannot express how miserable I feel right now, nor how I looked.

The sun started to set over the horizon as the night sky began to grow darker. The warmth of the sunlight was completely replaced by darkness satisfied by my despair.

I was alone. By myself. No one to hold on to.