Is it my imagination?
Is it something that I'm taking?
Sometimes I end up seeing him for a split second but when I blink, he isn't there anymore. I've been wondering what was wrong with my imagination or if I was taking something that caused that to happen. It's been nearly a month since Tom left because of work, and I gotta admit, I miss him so much. I mean, who wouldn't miss their best friend since childhood?
All the smiles that I'm faking
"Everything is great, everything is fucking great"
Someone, usually Harrison or Sam, would ask me if I'm fine and I'd just put on a fake smile and say, "Yeah, I'm fine. Everything's just great."
Going out every weekend
Staring at the stars on the ceiling
Hollywood friends, gotta see them
Such a good time, I believe it this time
Being their usual state, the guys and my best friend Chris/Christine would want to go out every weekend and they get me to come with them. Every night, lying in bed, I'd stare at the stars on the ceiling from a projector that Harry gave me as a birthday gift once.
None of this changes the fact that I miss him, none of it changes how I feel. Tom had to go to the filming, to see his friends, and I just hope that he's having such a good time.
Tuesday night
Glazed over eyes
Just one more pint or five
Does it even matter anyway?
One Tuesday night, I was hanging out with Harrison at a bar and I suddenly remembered the dark brown eyes that I used to glaze over from time to time.
"Come on, let's go. We've had enough," Harrison said as he stood up and rested his hand on my shoulder.
"Just one more," I said. "Or five."
"I said let's go."
"Does it even matter anyway?"
We're dancing on tables
And I'm off my face
With all of my people
And it couldn't get better they say
I remembered the times from before he left. When we'd sing our favourite songs while we were dancing and jumping onto everything. Sometimes, Harrison, Chris, or one of Tom's brothers would join in.
We're singin' till last call
And it's all out of tune
Should be laughing but there's something wrong
And it hits me when the lights go on
I'd dreamt about the moment just before he had to leave. We were at the airport and before leaving, we were just laughing while singing "Golden." Because we were so focused on the song, he realized that he had to board the plane when they finally said the last call. I should have been laughing or smiling, being happy for him but there was just something wrong. Not that I wasn't happy that he enjoyed his job, but it'd just be different...
The lights suddenly went on and I was woken up by Paddy's voice.
Shit, maybe I miss you
"Y/N, wake up! He's coming home today!"
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Holland(+ Osterfield & Parker) Imagines
FanfictionI have turned this into an imagine book. This includes: Tom Holland Sam Holland Harry Holland Harrison Osterfield(cuz he's basically family) Peter Parker(cuz Tom plays him) ALSO, IF YOU WANNA READ THIS, DON'T READ THE FIRST FEW CHAPTERS AND AGGRESSI...
