Ma Cherie// Emerson Barrett

29- I Haven't Loved Myself

-Destiny's POV-

It had been a rough few weeks, after our wedding Sebastian and Emerson fought like crazy, Larisa lashed out again, but for a completely different reason, and I found myself falling into a slump that I didn't know my way out of.

I found myself avoiding the mirror in the mornings, and eating less, and talking less. I knew I needed to stay strong for my family, but I could tell that I was beginning to lose myself.

One morning I woke up to my phone ringing. A phone call from Larisa

Destiny  Larisa

Hello?

Hey! Are you alright?

Uh, yeah. Yeah. where are you? Did you just like run off again?

No. We all went out to breakfast, Emerson said he tried to wake you up.

He did. I'm not hungry.

Don't lie to me.

I'm not lying.

Honey, what's wrong? I can hear it in your voice.

I'm okay. Just a bit of a slump is all.

We're worried about you. Worried sick, we don't want you unhappy.

I know you don't, I'll get through it, it's all good. Is Jay with you?

Yes ma'am. Behaving beautifully.

Thank the lord for that. I'm surprised she's not being annoying like me.

You're not annoying.

Ohhh but I was, I was a savage as a child

I could imagine you were. Do you want me to bring you anything home?

No, I'm okay. Thank you though.

Alright hun, we'll be back soon.

Okay.

She hung up the phone and I jumped in the shower, determined to face this slump that I had.

Only a mere twenty minutes later I heard everyone coming in the house.

I jumped out of the shower and dried off, quickly throwing on clothes before hearing a knock at the door.

"Who is it?" I spoke, looking at myself in the mirror for the first time in weeks. I was a mess.

"Larisa. Can I come in?" She spoke and I opened the door, visibly upset.

She came in and sat down.

"I brought you biscuits and gravy. You don't have to eat it now, but I brought it anyways" She spoke and I smiled, thanking her silently.

"Now tell me what's really up with you" She spoke again and I sighed.

"I wish I knew, after our wedding I heard Sebastian and Emerson fighting. And they were fighting about me. I heard them both scream my name at one another at least twice each. I don't know what exactly their fight had to do with me but it made me kinda insecure" I spoke and Larisa looked at me and then to the doorway, where we found Emerson standing.

"I'll leave you two to sort this out" She got up, leaving the room.

"Is this why you've been so off lately? Because of me and Sebastian?" Emerson spoke and I felt like I was gonna break down.

"I just didn't understand why you guys were fighting about me. It made me insecure because I couldn't figure out if I had done something wrong." I spoke and he just pulled me close

"We were fighting because he was jealous. He was angry because he has commitment issues and can't settle down to save his life, he loves Larisa but they fight so much that he's not sure. You haven't done anything wrong" He spoke and I layed my head on his chest, hoping to steady my breathing.

We layed down and he played with my hair softly

"I love you, and I love Jay. and nothing is ever gonna change that. No matter what my brothers say about it" He spoke and I smiled, looking up at him.

"I love you too Emerson."

A/N Okay. This is a super short chapter, but that's just because I needed a filler before the Epilogue. I can't believe this fic is getting ready to come to a close. There's plenty more coming though! I promise.

All my love,

Alyx