Char's Diary [h.s.]

|Ninth Entry| Date: December 17th, 2015

Dear Harry,

I'm about to have my third surgery. The first one was in August. The second was in October. The third one is tomorrow.

When I woke up after the first surgery, it only took a few hours. The second took longer, mom said it was almost 24 hours.

She told me everyone was afraid I wasn't going to wake up.

That scares me. Would if each surgery it takes longer for me to wake up. Eventually I'm not going to wake up.

If I don't wake up after this surgery, I don't know actually.

I know I want to make a difference in the world, not be some stupid kid with cancer.

The doctors say that they are taking part of my brain that is infected with cancer during each surgery. They are trying a treatment as well, it seems to be slowing the growth of the cancer. So, maybe they will eventually cure me.

(A/N: There is no cure for brain cancer, yet. So don't say "that's not possible". It's fiction. Anything can happen. )
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If I lived a normal life, I could have graduated early. I almost have enough credits to, but because of surgery I'll have to continue my classes next semester. As long as I graduate, I don't care.

I want to be able to be at graduation.

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You know, I think you've spent more time with me than you have studying for school. You need to pay attention more or you won't pass.

You need to stop worrying about others, worry about yourself. It won't hurt, I promise.

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You brought coffee to my hospital room. It's crappy coffee, but it's nice that you tried. I'm sure you can try harder next time. Hopefully this will be either the last surgery or the second to last.

You're also taking up most of my bed.

It reminds me of the beginning of the year. We drank coffee and talked about each other. And of course you fell asleep taking up most of my bed.

I kind of figured something like this would happen. Not really me falling in love with you. But us being friends. Good friends.

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It's time for my surgery. You left before I woke up, so I didn't get to see you. Are you afraid I won't wake up?

You better be here when I wake up, Harold. I'm serious. I like having you here.

You make me laugh even when I'm laying on the hospital bed, feeling like death itself.

~Char

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All I can think of is Charlotte.

Charlotte. Charlotte. Charlotte.

I tried studying, working, running, anything. Nothing is working.

She's on my mind, all the time.

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