was it meant to be? technoblade×reader(female)

was it meant to be? part 1

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(okay ik festival and blowing up wasn't together but I will try to it that way. This book might as well finish soon, so give me ideas for next book! It will not be done tommorow or this week but it might be in a month or so!)
Tw: blood

I woke up. My head is still hurting me and it's bad. I want this over. I just want to be with Techno. I just want everything to be over. I want Dream off my ways. I want Lmanburg to have their independece, but I don't want to live there. I want to be in a new biome, with Technoblade.

I'm still on lying on the grass. I can feel there's 4 people around me.
Why are we still here?

Everything is blurry and I can't focus on anything. It's making me mad. I can hear people around me talking.

Is this it? Is that how I come back? Is it starting again? Did kindapping take over love and teaming? To destroy Lmanburg?

I get my vision back.
There wasn't 4 voices talking. It was just 2 of them, but there was still 4 people around me.
2 of them were lying next to me, passed out, blood on their clothes.
It scared me.
What the fuck happened here.
I sit up and see Techno and Dream fighting again.
Now Dream, gave a lot more of himself into the fight, knowing Techno will kill him as soon as he gets a chanse.
I look Techno in the eyes.
They aren't, dark brown anymore. They aren't carring and nice. They don't give you a feel of safety either.
They are red. They give you vibes of someone that could and wouldn't mind to kill you in 1 hit. Sometimes it's all that takes. It can be just one hit. And they can be gone. From this world.

Forever.

With this minds, I remeber my parents.
Getting killed.
Me running away, from my home, my village. My brother. He chased me with whole village behind him.

Blood mode. Voices

I already saw what hes done to George and Sapnap.

Even if I want Dream out of my ways, I don't want him dead. I want him hurt. I want nobody to forgive him.
Worste than death, if you ask me.

"TECHNO STOP!" I yell at him. Techno's sword is on Dreams neck.

"Y/N DON'T COME IN THIS," Dream yelled back at me.

"Shut the fuck up Dream," I say to him.

"I said stop Y/N," he answered. He was trying to make eye content with me. But no. I am looking at Techno. His eyes are still red, but are getting his normal eye color back.

"You want to die, Dream? YOU WANT TO FUCKING DIE? I CAN SAY, TO HIM TO KILL YOU RIGHT NOW, RIGHT HERE, WITH ME WATCHING! AND DREAM I AM NOT AWARE TO DO THAT!"

Dream is still lying on the grass, with a sword pressed against his neck.
But he doesn't say anything.

I get on my legs and as soon as I get balance I start walking to them.

"Techno. No." I say pushing him away from Dream.
His eyes are now fully back to dark brown, they are beatiful again.
Eyes of a person I know, and love.

"Leave. Now!" Now I turned to Dream.

"Y/N-" he starts but I cut him off.

"I said leave."

I watch him walk away. Trying not to end himself by that.

I turn to Technoblade.
He hugs me. His hugs are so warm and nice. I could get use to them.

"I am so sorry, Y/N," he says, his arms sti warped around my body.

"Don't worry, it's fine it happens." I say.