the color of my life × taekook

6. trust

Taehyung's pov

I checked my phone and it was around 10 pm. He is definitely not asleep. I got up from the bed and went into the living room. Jungkook was sitting on the couch looking at the tv.

I went to the kitchen to grab a bag of chips and sat next to him on the couch.
"Hey," I said.

"Hi. Are you feeling better?" he asked and I suddenly felt warm again even before my vision was colored. He was still worried about me.

"Yeah. Way better, thanks to you." I smiled at him. I opened the bag of chips and put it in between us.

He took the bag and laid down with his head on my lap, then placed the bag next to his shoulder, not once looking at me. I was surprised but and it took everything in me to not protest because of my insecurity. I hesitantly ran my hand through his hair and he actually leaned his head back, liking the feeling.

I smiled but then I saw him smirk and I quickly looked at the TV, my face heating up. No matter how much I try not to get attached, he manages to make me believe he won't leave me.

As we were eating, we both put our hands in the bag at the same time. I felt our hands touching and quickly took it away. That feeling... Holding his hand...
It sent waves of electricity through me.

"Taehyung.." Jungkook started. "Who is your soulmate?" he asked and turned his head to look up at me.

It's you. It's you, you idiot! But how do I know you won't leave me if I tell you? You might leave even if I don't.

"You see... It might sound weird but I've been thinking you are my soulmate since this morning. Although we haven't talked to each other like this until today, I just- I don't know. I'm sorry if you think it's weird. Especially since you said you've found your soulmate." he avoided my gaze and his sad face in this monochrome sight was unbearable.

"You're not weird," I said. This is it. He might leave. But I can't see him confused and suffering because of me. Now that I think about it, I was selfish to keep this from him, even to the point I faked my confusion. He probably won't forgive me for this.

"I told you I've found my soulmate." I continue and still play with his hair, afraid it might be the last time. "And I did, a long time ago. After this morning you're probably unsure if I'm the one you were looking for or not. And I'm sorry for confusing you, but I am that person. I'm your...I'm your soulmate and you are mine. I'm sorry" I felt my eyes sting.

When I looked down he was deep in thought. Thinking about how selfish I am for not telling him, maybe.

Jungkook's pov

Kim Taehyung. My soulmate. The one who had introduced me to my first colors. He was so close all this time. So that means this morning...he lied.

"So this morning you lied?" I asked. I was still a bit confused. He hesitantly nodded and I asked why.

"Because you deserve better. I'm not anything special. I don't- I'm scared. People always leave. You'll probably leave me too for lying to you right? I'm so selfish I-"

"Taehyung." I interrupted him with widened eyes. Now I get it. He thinks I will leave him. I have never left anyone out of my life. "Why would I leave you? You're not selfish for doing what you think is right. I would've waited for you. And I'm definitely going to keep waiting until you feel comfortable. I want to earn your trust" I took his hand in mine and caressed it.

Taehyung's pov

You've earned it. You've earned it long ago and even more now. It's the other way around, really. I hope I earn his trust.

I squeezed his hand and he sat up and hugged me. It took me by surprise but I really appreciated it and hugged him back.

He tilted his head back to look at me and the colorful world hit me, except the only color I looked at was the color of his eyes. Brown. Dark brown.
"Nice to meet you, Kim Taehyung. My soulmate. I've been looking for you."

"I'm enchanted to meet you, my soulmate, Jeon Jungkook. Thank you for finding me."