Secrets// Ryūnosuke Tanaka x Reader [ON HOLD!]

11.

1st POV (Y/n)

After we got home, I immediately got a call from my dad.

Dad: What the heck happened Y/n?!

You: Well Michikō decided to fight me, so I fought her back..

Dad: Yeah, I know that much, but why the heck did it happen in the first place?

You: ..

Dad: Y/n..?

I didn't want to have to tell my dad about what happened with Toshio, so I tried to lie instead.

You: I don't even know ok.. You know how she gets

Dad: Y/n, what really happened?

I felt a lump form in my throat, as I thought of something to say.

You: It was nothing ok

Dad: Y/n, if you're uncomfortable with talking about that's fine.. but if it's that bad where a fight has to happen.. then I'm gonna worry..

I held back tears as Toshio's word repeated in my head, "You are absolutely nothing to me.. You are so fucking insecure, and your body is nothing compared to Michikō's". I was bitting my lip, trying not to cry.

You: Uhm.. I- Im sorry..

Dad: What.. sorry about what?

You: I- don't know what's wrong with me..

Dad: Y/n.. what happened?

You: Uhm, I asked out this boy, that I really liked, a- and he.. he told me that I'm too insecure.. and that.. that I'm nothing like his girlfriend..

My dad was silent for a second which worried me, as a tear fell down my face.

Dad: Y/n, I am so sorry that someone said that to you.. Honey, you are perfect ok, don't listen to what that boy told you

You: But he's right.. I am too insecure, maybe if I liked the way I looked, or maybe changed the way I looked, then he would like me..

Dad: No, don't ever think that way, don't change yourself for someone else's needs.. If he doesn't like you the way you are now, he never liked you in the first place, and never will. I'm sorry, but it's the truth..

You: Ok.

Dad: I love you Y/n, and be safe, but I have to get back to work

You: Ok, I love you too

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After I hung up, I walked to my room, and locked it. I walked into my bathroom, and looked in the mirror. "What if he's right?", "am i too insecure?", I asked myself.

I started a bath, so I could just try to relax, and forget about what happened today.

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By the time I got our of the bath, it was only 10 in the morning, "I wish Tanaka was here..", I said sitting on my bed.

"Knock, Knock, Knock"

I looked up at my door,and got up to see who it was.

Opening it, I saw Emiko standing there, with a worried face.

"Hey..", she spoke looking me in the eyes, "I heard what you told dad on the phone earlier..". I felt my heart drop as I heard those word come out of her mouth. "A- and, I just wanted tell you, that you really are a great person Y/n, and the best sister I could ever have.. and I'm sorry if I don't show that affection to you enough".

I could hear her voice crack, and her words made me feel bad. I've never seen Emiko this way before, and I didn't understand why, at this moment she was telling me this.

"I- I try to do the best I can be there for you.. and I feel like I'm failing at my job as a sister. It just hurts me to see you always out and having fun, because I feel like it's my fault you're never home, like you don't ever want to be around me. And it hurts me even more, when I see you cry, because I don't really know what goes on when you're not around me.. and it makes me feel worthless".

'Worthless?.. failing at her job as a sister.. am I making her feel like this?', I thought to myself before I felt Emiko's warm embrace, as she brought me into a hug.

She lightly cried into my shoulder, as she spoke, "I- I'm so sorry Y/n.. I'm sorry if I'm not good enough for you. I just want you to know that I really do try my hardest for you", she said as I hugged her back.

"Emiko, you way more than enough, and I'm sorry that I make you feel this way", I told her, "And u love you so much", I said placing my hand on her pink hair. "I love you too", she said breaking the hug, "But you're not the reason I feel like this..", she said, "Who is then?", I asked.

She hesitated at first, "I- I just put this stuff on myself.. I guess", she said barley smiling, "No, who the heck is making you feel like this?", I asked knowing that she was lying.

She took a deep breath before speaking again, "Tomi..", she said looking away from me. "TOMI?!", I screamed with anger, "YOUR BOYFRIEND?!".

"Yeah.. uhm we kinda.. broke up..", she said now taking a few steps away from me.

Tomi 'used' to date my sister, and I never really liked him in the first place. So now that I knew that he was making her feel like this, and that they broke up, made me furious.