Secrets// Ryūnosuke Tanaka x Reader [ON HOLD!]

14. Hidden Emotions

1st POV (Y/n)

"Mom?", I said shooting my head towards the gym doors.

"Hi sweetie!", she said walking up to me, "W- what are you doing here?", I asked stepping back a little.

"Oh, U- Uhm.. Well, I was going to just stop by to see a friend.. B- But I saw you and Emiko practicing, so I came to say hi", she said stuttering.

"Why didn't you say hi to Emiko?", I asked her, "Oh, well because I didn't think that she would want to see me", she said in a shakey voice.

"And you thought I would?", I said raising my voice a little bit. "Y/n.. I'm your mom..", she said grabbing my hand.

"You left me! You left us! And didn't care enough to call, text, or even to come by.. For what? Almost 7 years now? I don't what kind of mother you think you are, but you sure as hell didn't act like one to me". I told her yanking my arm away from her.

"Y/n!", she yelled, "I come all the way out here, for you to treat me like this?", she yelled frustrated.

"You came all the way out here to see a 'friend'! You didn't come out here for me, Emiko, or dad!", I yelled back.

"If you think coming to see us is your way of saying sorry. Then you should just go back home", I told her grabbing my stuff.

"Honey..", she said placing her arm on my shoulder, "Can you just leave me alone?!", I yelled.

Tears formed in her eyes as she stepped back.

"Oh so now you think crying is going to fix it? Do you know how many endless night I cried myself to sleep, knowing that you weren't coming back? I blamed myself! For your mistakes!", I yelled at her.

"You have NO right to try and walk into my life, and act like you're the hurt one! You hurt us! And if anything, you hurt yourself", I said walking away.

"Y/n.. Baby..", she said following me.

"God damn it! Just leave me the hell alone! Ok?! I don't want to see you! Can you not get that through your head?", I yelled annoyed. "You always told me to walk away from my problems, and forget about them.. so here I am", I said walking to the store Emiko was at.

Emiko then walked out of the store, "What's going on?", she asked looking at me, "M- mom?", she said stopping.

"Let's go!", you said tugging on her arm, "Wait.. I- I left my jacket", she said running back into the gym to get it.

When she came out our mom stopped her.

"You've grown so much..", she said placing a hand on Emiko's face.

"Emiko C'mon!", I said wanting to leave, "B- but I-", she started before I cut her off.

"You wanna know what she said? She said she didn't even bother to stop and talk to you. Because she thought that you wouldn't want to see her", I said still waiting for her to come on.

"You still wanna sit here and talk to someone who probably didn't want to see you in the first place be my guest", I said walking away.

"She said she came to visit a friend anyway!", I yelled once more, before leaving.
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When I got home, Emiko came in shortly after.

"Was what you said true?", she asked, "No, I just wanted to come back to play Mario Kart", I said with sarcasm.

"Y/n I'm being serious. Take things seriously for once", she said rolling her eyes.

"I am! Ok. Yes, she did say those things. She didn't come to see either of us!", I yelled.

"No, you don't ever take shit seriously!", she yelled back, "What the hell are you talking about?!", I yelled.

"You always have to be playing around, and making everything a fucking joke!", she yelled walking into the kitchen.

"Who doesn't like a little laughter at times?", I said.

"And at least I can actually stick around for our dad, you're always fucking some other guy", I said under my breath.

"What did you say?", she said coming up to me, "It was nothing", I said rolling my eyes at her, and walking into the living room.

"No. Say it.", she demanded, "I don't have to do shit", I said back at her, "God your so annoying!", she yelled.

"Then leave", I said back with a sassy tone, "What?", she asked standing in front of the TV. "You heard me. Leave", I said, "Isn't your house anyway. Been on and off, living with different boy's", I said agitated.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?", she said offended, "Exactly how it sounds", I said getting up again.

"You left us.. just like mom. Damn, I guess 'mother like daughter' is true", I said.

And I only said it because I was frustrated. Both with her and my mom.

"What the hell has gotten into you Y/n?!", she yelled with tears forming in her eyes.

"I honestly don't even know Emiko", I said walking to my room.

"What the hell is wrong with me", I said to myself.

"My life is so fucked up", I said getting a notification.

Tick boi🦋:

Y/N!! WHAT HAPPENED
TODAY?!!

I laughed a bit reading the message.

                                             You:
                    
      Well,  she wanted to fight,
          so I fought her.

I responded back.

Thick Boi🦋:

whoa, I didn't know
could fight 👁️👄👁️

                                               You:
                           
                    uh- I am. offended.

Thick Boi 🦋:

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨

                                          You:

   alright, I'm gonna take a nap 😴

Thick Boi🦋:

Awe Ok

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"I miss you so much.. I would do anything just to be happy with you again..", I said before pulling the covers over my body.

"I love you mom", I said before closing my eyes and drifting off to sleep.