Collided Hearts: A Hogwarts story

17.

  -DRACOS POV-:

  She kissed me. I didn't know how to react. I wasn't kissing back, afraid of what it would mean. She pulled back, clearly embarrassed.

  "I'm so sorry. I don't know what came over me. Thank you for the br-"

  I smashed my lips into hers. She's been toying with me for days, which only made her even more desirable. I regret making out with Pansy. I only did it because I had seen Bella with Edwards, and I was jealous?

  Even if I was, she's mine and only mine.

  She kissed me back. It was getting heated fast. Our breaths heavy, the thick sweat settling into the room. This was different. She was different. I'm afraid of what she'll make me. She'd make me soft. I can't be soft.

  As soon as I started to accept the kiss, Granger had to walk in. Of course. That stupid little mudblood having to ruin everything like always.

  "Oh- was I interrupting something?" She asked while giving me a dirty glare. I scoffed. "No. I was just leaving." As I got up and walked away, I turned back to Bella; looking at her one last time. I can't be seen with her anymore.

  I left Gryffindor tower, walking towards the dungeons. I need to talk to Blaise. He was right about her.

  A few minutes passed and I was met with the dungeon entrance.

  "Password?" The portrait asked.

  "Salazar" I whispered. The door swung open.

  I sped towards my dorm, loosening my tie. Did I make a mistake buying that for Bella? No. No, I didn't. Did I? So many questions were running through my mind. Why was I jealous? Are her and Edwards a thing? Does she like me? Do I like her?

  I arrived to my dorm, not noticing Blaise sitting on his bed reading a book. I paced back and forth, mentally yelling at myself for letting this happen.

Blaise snapped me out of my thoughts. "Woah there mate, you alright? You seem upset."

"Bella kissed me." I said coming to a stop. My voice empty, staring blankly at the floor.

He seemed to chuckle. "What was that?" He provoked.

"Bella kissed me." I said  in an aggravated tone this time. It wasn't until I looked up and saw him smiling at me. "What?" I hissed.

  " I knew you both had something going on. You're just too stubborn to admit it." He chuckled.

  "I do not have anything towards her. I mean imagine me, dating a Gryffindor, and a half blood at that! Father would go mad. Plus Edwards has her wrapped around his little finger." I snapped as I changed into my night clothes.

  "Well, I definitely sense something between you guys." He mumbled.

  I huffed and got into bed. I don't like how she stood me up the other day at the tower , when I was just trying to apologize. Apologize. That was my first mistake. Showing her I was weak. And then buying her that stupid present. I'm such a fool.

  Could I ever be with her ?

  -BELLA'S POV-:

  He kissed me back. I thought to myself. I chuckled and ran my finger over my lips, trying to savor the taste.

  "Ahem." Hermione cleared. Oh shit. "What in the headless Nick was that about ? Malfoy of all people? Bella I'm disappointed." She said while walking over to her side of the dorm.

  "If I can recall , you and Ginny were the ones putting the idea in my head that Malfoy fancied me. So if anything, this is your fault."

  She sighed. "Bella, I don't care who you're with. After everything you deserve happiness. But with Malfoy? I mean come on. His family is known to be involved with all that death-eater business. You said so yourself , Voldemort is to blame for your mother's death. Do you really want to associate yourself with Draco Malfoy?"

  I hadn't thought about it like that. I gulped. "Well, surely it's not Draco's fault. I mean , he was just a child like myself when it happened."

  She gave me a look. "If you say so. Just be careful Bell. I care about you."

  "I will be. Plus I don't even know if it means anything. I was out with Logan earlier and-"

  She giggled. "Wait. You mean to tell me you have two boys that fancy you?"

  "What? No, Logan is just a dear friend. I think. Or not." I groaned. "This is all so frustrating! I mean, I held his hand and we kissed but-"

"YOU KISSED!?" She exclaimed.

"Shhh! We don't want the whole Gryffindor tower to know do we?!" I sighed.

"I'm sorry- it's just. Bella. You've kissed two boys in the matter of a day. Do you like both of them?"

This had me thinking. "Well I mean, im still getting to know both of them. With Logan it's like, I can be vulnerable. I can relate to him. He makes me feel loved and accepted. With Draco it's like, I have to be different. But at the same time I feel safe. Free. Like I could be any version of myself."

"Who do you see yourself with? I mean, who do you think you could build a life with?"

"I mean, with Draco I can't see any future for us. He would become a death-eater sooner or later. Although I'm praying he doesn't. With Logan, it would be stable. I'd be happy. But I'd be happy with Draco as well. I'd go through anything and everything with him."

"You can't lead the other on. You need to get your feelings in check. In the end, someone is going to get hurt. You need to figure out who you want that someone to be." She advised.

"That's just it though. I don't want either of them to get hurt. Right now I have no idea where I stand with Draco nor with Logan."

"Then there's only one person who will get hurt if you choose to spare them of the truth. You."