Collided Hearts: A Hogwarts story

16.

I slowly melted into the kiss. I think I could see myself being with Logan. I rested my hand on his shoulder while he had his hand placed on my cheek. This was the second time I had kissed him, yet it felt so different. This time I meant it. It wasn't a stupid dare, I wanted to kiss him.

But I can't. It's not fair to him. I can't deny that I have feelings for Draco. Yeah, might as well cut the last name bullshit. Part of me feels something towards him and I don't know why.

I pulled away from the kiss. Logan looked at me confused.

"Logan, you're a really nice guy, but I can't. We can't. I don't wanna rush into this or ruin this friendship we have." I said with a slight frown.

  He sighed. "It's him, isn't it? Malfoy." It is.

  "No Logan that's not-"

  "It's okay Bella. I just hope you know what a mistake it is. He's not good for you. But I'll wait for you. As long as it takes. I told myself I've never been one to date, and this is the exact reason why. This hurt. But for you, it's all worth it."

  My eyes started to tear up. I have this amazing guy in front of me and I'm ruining it for someone who doesn't even want me.

  "Thank you Logan. I promise you our time will come. Just not now."

  He gave me an understanding nod. Even after what just happened, there was no awkward tension. That's what I liked about Logan. He could make the worst of situations better.

  I grabbed the rose and we walked into the Three Broomsticks where I saw George and Fred with Lee.

  "Do you wanna join them?" I asked Logan while moving my head towards the boys.

  Before he could respond.. "BELLA! LOGAN! LOVEBIRDSSSS" Fred shouted out.

  I sighed while walking over to their table with Logan.

  "Everyone, this is Logan." I introduced as we sat down.

  After a few minutes, the boys had been getting along great. While they were joking about, I couldn't help but let my mind wander. I know Draco and I hadn't been a thing, yet it hurt to see him with Pansy. It's strange, isn't it? Hurting over someone you know you can't have. Over someone you've never even been with.

  Fuck. My strangled rose. I decided to call it that seeing how it was wrapped in lights. I'll just get a new one.

  "When did those two happen?" George pointed over at the booth behind us.

  We all turned to look, and of course, there they were. Are they trying to ruin my day? Draco, Blaise, Pansy, and Astoria all in one booth. I swear if I have to see Draco and Pansy all up on each other one more time, I will gladly pitch myself off the astronomy tower.

  "I don't know. But they're perfect for each other." I mumbled.

  Draco noticed us staring and looked into my eyes. Fuck. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't look away. His facial features softened. A faint smile formed on his face.

  "Can we talk?" He mouthed. I broke the eye contact. I don't even wanna hear what he has to say. It's fine though really. I caught feelings over one little hangout. He made it clear he wants nothing to do with me.

  "Can we go? I have some homework I need to catch up on." I lied to the boys. I needed to get out of there desperately.

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A few hours had passed, and I was now in my dorm writing in my journal/diary. I started writing about Draco. How my feelings for him had evolved. I didn't want to feel this way about him, but I did. I do. Ginny had quidditch practice and Hermione was in the library. It seemed like I was always alone when in the dorm.

I haven't seen Olive all day, and I need to tell her everything. I threw on a random jumper since it was starting to get chilly. I hid my journal under my bed and made my way to Olive's dorm. As I opened the door I bumped into someone.

"Oh shit sorry I-" Draco. "What are you doing here Draco?" I huffed impatiently. The last person I wanted to see was at my dorm. Wait, why is he here?

"Draco huh? Didn't know we were going by first name basis, Marshall." He grinned. Man that smile always gets me.

"Obviously we're not if you're calling me Marshall. Now I'm only gonna ask again. What are you doing here?" I sneered.

He pushed me aside and made his way into my dorm. "Not bad. Thought it would reek with that Weasley girl in here." He said as he sat on my bed.

"Don't come in here uninvited and insult my friend. I have somewhere to be and you're wasting my time. I huffed with my hand on my hip.

"Oh with that Edwards boy I presume? What is he your little boyfriend?" He scoffed while looking down. I noticed he had brought a bag with him that was similar to the one I had my strangled rose in from earlier..

"Is Draco Malfoy jealous? I bet Parkinson won't be too happy to hear that." I muttered at the last bit.

"That's why I came. I'm not gonna apologize, but I wanted to say that I'm not not sorry. Theres nothing going on with me and Pansy." He hesitated.

"Draco that's still technically an apol-"

"I know I know! But you'll never hear me say the two words so this is the best that you'll get." He warned.

I smiled. Even after everything he doesn't fail to make my heart flutter. "What's that you got there?" I motioned towards the bag.

"Earlier after you walked off with Lo- Edw- that guy, I noticed you dropped something. I never knew you were a sucker for roses Marshall." He smirked. "I felt- not great, so I uhm.. decided to replace it. I found out that was the last one so I hope you don't mind with this new gift."

I smiled again. He really bought me a whole other thing when he didn't have to. He's so confusing. I went and sat beside him as he started to reach into the bag. He pulled out a green square shaped velvet box. "You really didn't need to-"

"Just open the fucking box Marshall" He huffed impatiently.

I rolled my eyes before opening the box. I lightly gasped, taking hold of the silver dangle in front of me. It had a single charm on it. A red diamond rose.

"I- I don't what to say." I mumbled as I grazed my fingers over the rose. Of course he had to get me something this expensive.

He chuckled lightly. "Let me put it on you." He said lowly. Draco grabbed the bracelet and snapped it around my wrist. "You can always add more charms to it if you'd like. I just figured you liked roses."

"Thank you." We weren't that far apart now. I could smell the cologne he had on him.

  "Yeah well you better. This is the last not cruel thing I'll ever do for you." He said while still looking down.

  "Yet you've never been cruel to me." I said.
 
  He looked up from my wrist; meeting my eyes. The tension was thick. The room was quiet. Our breathing was heavy for no reason. My heart seemed to be beating faster than ever. We stared into each-others eyes for a moment, and a moment was all I needed to melt. Melt into those stupid eyes of his. I might come to regret this, but I'd hate myself if I didn't.

  And so I did what he wouldn't do to me.

  I kissed him. I kissed Draco Malfoy.