This is family - Trans TommyInnit

Am I a bad dad?

TW: Panic attack, Ace bandages, Child neglect is referenced

The pair just stared in silence at Phil, they weren't sure what to answer with.

"Kids, what's going on?"

Tara finally moves, giving Techno a glare before walking towards to door.

"Tara, you almost died two days ago. You're staying here." Techno now turns to Phil. "I'll prepare the spare room, Tara is probably going to stay here until she recovers."

Phil watches Techno leave to a door on the side. "Tara, I-"

"Shut the f#ck up Phil."

"Tara, you're my daughter I care about you."

Daughter, that word hurt her a lot. But what if she was faking it, Tara's arm drift up to her chest. She then looked back at Phil.

"Then maybe you should have showed it" Tara glared at Phil before, Techno came back into the main room.

"Tara, your room is through there spare bandages are in the chest." He then gestured towards a door to the side.

Tara glares at them both and goes to her new room, she slammed the door as hard as possible. She flopped down onto the bed, her dysphoria was terrible from being called Tara for the last who knows how long.

She began to shake as she thinks back to when she lived with Phil, she didn't want that to happen again.

"Dad, could I talk to you about something?" Tara asked. Tara was terrified she had been trying to tell her dad she thought she was trans for 5 months.

"TARA, HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU? I AM F#CKING BUSY."

Tears were pouring out of her eyes at the memory, she looked up at the mirror everything looked so wrong. Why was she like this? Is she even right about all this?

Tara sighed before she had an idea, she looked at herself in the mirror.

"Look at Tara, he is so cool!" Tara gasped in surprise, it felt amazing the only thing wrong was his name. Tara didn't feel right, it felt terrible. He went through a few names he had always liked like; Josh, Joey, Tommy, Timothy and Corbin, (I am terrible with names sorry) He eventually decided on Tommy.

"Look at Tommy, he is so cool!" Tommy changed his expression to one of surprise, why hadn't he tried this sooner?

The only thing left was his chest, well maybe other than his hair that reached his mid torso. But he didn't want to cut it while he was still with Phil and Techno, he turned to the chest where Techno told him the bandages were.

He knew it was dangerous but he felt like sh#t, he slowly wrapped the bandages around his chest. He tried to make it as tight and flat as possible, he knew it would come back to bite at him but for now he didn't care.

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Silenced say between them, neither of them was sure what to say next. Before Phil opened his mouth; "Was I really that sh#t of a dad."

"No of course not dad, you cared so much about all of us." Techno then began to think back to his argument with Tara, what had she said? Something about being ignored for several months. "Phil, Tara did say something though about her wanting to talk to you. She said she was asking for several months or something, I can't remember though."

Phil looks up at the roof trying to think back to when Tara still lived with him.

"TARA. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU! I AM F#CKING BUSY!"

"F#ck... Maybe I am a bad dad Techno."

"No you're not Phil, you supported all of us."

"I supported you Techno, I yelled at her for wanting to talk to me. I don't even remember what I was doing." Phil puts his head in his hands looking down. "I am a sh#tty dad Techno."

"Everyone makes mistakes Phil."

"Yes but, I should have learnt from them faster. It was killing both of them now I think about it, Wilbur even wanted me to kill him. I am the reason Wilbur committed suicide Techno." Techno now had his arm awquardly wrapped around Phil, he was never that good at comforting people. "Techno, you saw the cuts on her arm right? Please tell me weather they were intentional or not."

Techno looked down with guilt; "The were intentional..."

"I am an idiot Techno, I don't deserve to be a dad."

"Go talk to her." Phil looks up at him in and then back at the door, he then gets up and heads to her room taking a deep breath.