This is family - Trans TommyInnit

It's my fault

TW: Mentioned suicide, Misgendering, Implies past panic attacks.

Tommy woke up early that morning, he looked around. The last thing he remembered was being at Eret's castle, he must have fallen asleep. He looks across the room at where Ranboo should be, but the bed is perfectly made as if no one slept in it. Tommy then climbed down the ladder (How Ranboo got him up the ladder, he had no idea), still no Ranboo though. Tommy shrugged and took an apple, he must be outside.

Tommy pushed open the door to have a quick look around, his binder still not on. He sees Tubbo also looking for something, so he goes back up the ladder to put on his binder so he could help.

"Hey Tubbo!"

"Hi Tommy, have you seen Ranboo?"

"No he wasn't in bed this morning." he paused taking another bite out of his apple. "In fact it didn't look like he slept in his bed at all."

"I was talking to him last night, he said he was going home... I hope he is okay." Tommy just hummed in response not focusing to much. "Tommy have I seen you before? I feel like I know who you are."

Tommy gulped and quickly came up with a lie, "I used to play Hypixel a lot maybe you saw me on there?"

"Mmmmmm, maybe..." Tubbo then sighed and came up with a desicion. "Tommy do you want to come see Tara with me?"

Tommy wasn't sure what to do, he knew that Tubbo would find the pool of blood that has probably now dried in his tent. "Sure?" Tubbo smiled and grabbed Tommy's wrist and began to drag him to the portal. Tommy winced slightly at the pain that shot up his arm.

Tommy didn't mind the pain that much, being dragged around my Tubbo reminded him of before he was in exile, Tubbo alway showing him the next thing he was working on.

They went through the portal, and began to walk over the small log. Tommy's legs began to shake, he built this with Dream when no one came to his party. Dream, Dream was his friend right? Ranboo had to be wrong... Or was he? A tear began to slip down his face, he quickly wiped it away and quickened the pace to catch up to Tubbo.

"You good Tommy? Sorta froze up a bit there." Tubbo giggled.

"No! I am a big man why would I ever do that?"

"Sure Tommy."

Tommy didn't say anything, but his mind began traveling 100 miles a hour. Did Tubbo know? Was he just leading him there to leave him there once more? No Tubbo wouldn't do anything like that.

They soon arrived at the portal and went through to arrive at Logstenshire.

"TARA! I am here." Tubbo called out. Tommy began to feel a bit guilty about not telling Tubbo, but he had until he was ready right. "She must be in her tent, she named it Tnret for some reason."

Tommy wanted to stop him from going in there, seeing the puddle of blood from his old scars. But he couldn't, They then went around the corner to see the inside of the tent. Tubbo gasped and then looked at him. "Tommy, Tara she... she... what happened?" Tubbo let out a sob, and Tommy tried to remember what Ranboo would do for him when he panicked.

Tommy then awquardly put his arms around Tubbo and let him cry, Tommy felt so bad Tubbo thought he had died... committed suicide... He was fine if Phil or Techno thought that but Tubbo...

"It's all my fault Tommy, if I hadn't exiled her she wouldn't have had to do this..." Tubbo let out another sob into his shirt. The two stood there for a while just letting Tubbo take in what happened.

"Tara, I told you that you would come back!"