This is family - Trans TommyInnit

Whats in the chest?

TW:Panic attack, Transphobia, Self harm, Blood

Tara had never felt so betrayed and alone, she wanted a beach party and only Dream turned up. He thought that Tubbo at least regretted exiling him a little bit, even Ghostbur left him after handing out the invites.

She heard a woosh as Dream cam out of the portal, this was normal by now he would come and hangout with her so she wasn't lonely.

"Hello Tara!" Dream waves at her as he walks up the path, Tara waited knowing what would happen next. Dream brought out his shovel and began to dig down, Tara knew she would have to part with her stuff again. To be honest she didn't know why she tried anymore, she would get new armour and then Dream would blow it up.

Dream finally dug four metres deep when he hit something wooden, Tara looked at him with panic when she realised where he was digging.

"Tara, I told you not to hide anything from me." Dream says looking up at her.

"I... Please... Please don't look in the chest Dream..." Tara looks back down not wanting to look at Dream.

"Tara, you and I both know I can't do that." Dream digs up the final layer of dirt, he then reached down towards the chest. Tara in panic slaps Dreams arm out of the way, Tara looks back at Dream with complete fear in her eyes.

Dream drew back his hand and looked at Tara straight to her eyes, Tara quickly looked away; "Tara, I have done so much for you." Dream begins before pausing to think. "I am your best friend, in fact your only friend and you hit me?"

"Dream, please I didn't mean to. I am so sorry, don't hurt me please..." Tara continued with her apologies, while Tara was distracted Dream opened the chest and pulled out tank top looking things.

"Tara what are these?" Dream of course knew they were binders, Fundy happily showed everyone when he got his. Tara still looked down at her feet and stayed silent. "TARA, ANSWER ME WHAT THE F#CK ARE THESE!"

"Binders..." Tara murmurs.

Dream grabs her chin, and forces Tara to look at him. "Speak up."

Tara looks at him in fear, as blood begins to drip down the side of her cheek. "Binders."

"Do you think you're a f#cking boy Tara? You know this is wrong, imagine if everyone back at L'Manberg knew." Dream smiled a bit as an idea came to his head. "You know what will happen if you run now?" Tara shook her head, well as well as she could with Dreams hand still squeezing her jaw. "I will go back to L'Manberg and tell everyone about you." Dream let's go of her jaw and puts the binders in this pockets.

"Follow me now."

"Of course, Dream."

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Tara felt sick, the only thing that kept her sane was now gone. She had been questioning her gender since she was eleven, before Fundy even came out, and the binders were part of that. She couldn't bare to use different pronouns for herself, she felt as if she was faking all of it.

The vision came back two her of the binders being thrown into the lava, one at a time until all three were gone. She wanted to return to the nether, join the binders in the sea of lava.

The thought of that let a tear began to fall down her cheek, why was she like this? Why couldn't she be normal? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

She let out a choked sob, and her body began to shake. Her hear stuck to the tear tracks, why couldn't she be a boy? A cis boy? She didn't want to transition because she was scared, but she felt so sh#t about her body it was almost necessary.

Her nails, that were too feminine mad their way to her arms. She traced the scars that were there, she then began to scratch at them leaving the blood to fall to the floor. The blood kept rushing out of both of her arms, she began to feel slightly light heard before she feel back and got knocked out from the contact.