Learning to Love (Corpse X Sykkuno)

Serotonin Boost

A fresh scent washed over me. It was a mix of berries and lavender, which I didn't know could be such an amazing combo. But I'm not complaining. The scent gave me an energized feeling, like I was excited for something. I wasn't sure what I was excited for though. I haven't felt "energized" in a long while so how could a mere scent cause me, a lazy ass, to feel something other than misery for the day?

That question will probably remain unanswered because all I could focus on was getting more and more of this refreshing scent. It felt so soft and.....wait. Soft? Since when does a scent feel soft?

I opened my eyes to a brightly lit bedroom. The sun was up and the birds were chirping. I felt a warm weight on my chest and was faced with a head of messy black hair. Sykkuno's head was resting on my chest, I realized. His right hand was splayed on my left shoulder, gripping the fabric of my t-shirt. His mouth was slightly open and his cute button nose was twitching slightly. His right leg was laid across my body, keeping me close to him.

An endearing smile appeared on my face. As if on autopilot, my fingers began carding through Sykkuno's messy hair. The strands were as soft as silk, and his natural fragrance was a literal breath of fresh air. I couldn't help myself as I continued to gently pet his hair and breathe in his scent.

This is really nice I thought to myself while stroking Sykkuno's soft locks. I want this to last forever I continued to wish. But I knew I should stop. Sykkuno could wake up any minute and catch me running my fingers through his hair. Oh god, I didn't even ask for permission to touch his hair! I took my hand away, as if it was burnt. I was being a complete creep. I can't do this shit without asking for Sykkuno's consent. What type of person am I? He's going to hate me and be disgusted. Oh god, of god....

"Why'd you stop?" Sykkuno's asked, his sleep filled voice interrupting my internal panic. My head immediately snapped down towards him. I couldn't help but notice just how adorable he looked with a pout on his face. Is it possible to die from cuteness overload? I wondered briefly. My thoughts were once again interrupted by a tired Sykkuno rubbing his face against my chest. The action reminded me of a kitten, nuzzling against me to get my attention.

Once I made that comparison, I couldn't help but imagine Sykkuno in cat ears. He was already irresistible as is, but with cat ears, he would be lethal to my heart. My head started creating multiple images of Sykkuno in cat ears, smiling at me, hugging me, and even kiss- I need to stop right there. Now is not the time to be having these fantasies of Sykkuno when he's right in my arms.

"Corpse? Can you hear me? Are you okay?" Sykkuno asked. I tried my best to shake off those images and tried to get my rapidly beating heart to slow down.
"Sorry Sykkuno. Just zoned out for a bit, but yeah, uh, I hear ya," I awkwardly responded, flashing him a nervous smile.

"Okay, well I wanted to ask this question since you were zoned out. But my request is if you could uh- do this thing for me? That's not phrased too well," Sykkuno mumbled to himself. "Oh Jesus, never mind, it's so weird. And awkward. Just forget that I have a question!" Sykkuno quickly finished, his face a bright red.

"Sykkuno, I'm not going to judge you, I promise. Feel free to ask whatever you want," I tried to reassure. Sykkuno just buried his head against my chest in embarrassment.
"Could you, like, by any chance, pet my head again because I really liked it when you did that," Sykkuno asked nervously. His fingers were gripping my shirt tighter, while he was waiting for my response.

I could tell Sykkuno was panicking a bit because his heart rate increased and his hands were fidgety. So to calm him down, I hesitantly placed my hand on top of his head as a silent response to his request. Sykkuno immediately leaned his head against my hand, letting out a sigh of contentment when I finally started stroking his hair just right.
"Thank you, Corpse. I-I really needed this," Sykkuno whispered.
"Of course. I'm here for you too, Sykkuno."

Sykkuno let out a cute yawn after my words and I just continued to pet him, while also resting my other hand against his waist. Holding another human being felt...nice. And I think Sykkuno was okay with it because I felt him slowly relax against me and closing his eyes. After a few minutes, I assume Sykkuno fell back asleep because his breathing started to even out, and his grip on my shirt relaxed.

I didn't  go back to sleep because I couldn't. My insomnia kept me up. I should've gotten out of bed to start my day, but I couldn't. I just wanted to stay in bed with Sykkuno, so I did.

I don't know how long I laid there, basking in Sykkuno's presence, but all I know was that it was the nicest morning I've had in a long time. I usually hate the mornings. I hated the happy birds and the sun for reminding me of happiness I couldn't have. I hated staying in bed, and feeling useless.

But for once, I didn't feel useless and angry. For once, I didn't mind the too bright sun or the loud singing birds. For once, depressing thoughts didn't consume me. For once, I didn't scramble for my anti depressants so that I could silence my thoughts. For once, I felt happy. And it was all because of an adorable human being named Sykkuno.

Who even needs anti depressants when I have my very own serotonin boost right here? I wondered, smiling down at the man in my arms.