Sweet Surrender Larry/Elounor

Ch.3

"Do I have to answer that?" Liam spoke hesitantly, gazing over at Zayn beside him. We all looked at Zayn, and he shrugged holding his straight face. As for now he is, I don't know if he will hold it any longer than five minutes.

"What now, you're not inlove with him?" Niall teased raising his eyebrows. Liam laughed out loud, leaning his head on Zayns shoulder. Zayn faced him, with Liam's head still on his shoulder kissing briefly on the lips. I looked away from their intimate moment and my eyes immedietly fell on Harry's bent over figure, he was staring out in space with furrowed eyebrows and a far away look on his face. I wonder what he is thinking about, that makes his face look so concentrated and out of it, perhaps he has found someone?

Aah, I should keep that in mind for later. "Boys it was okay when you kept that pg13, tongue around friends is not okay." Niall scolded at them throwing a little water over their heads.
"Here is some holy water," He said with a straight face.
"May god lead you to the right path with no tongue involved." He added splashing the remaining on to their faces.

Zayn lets out a laugh so hard that you can't even hear any sound coming from his mouth, only small huffs of air while he's clutching at his stomach rolling around the floor. "Ni!" He laughs "All" He adds laughing even more as he probably thinks about what happened.
"Zayn get your shit together," Harry spoke from across the room, he's holding the bottle that rolled away from Zayns fit.

"Let's keep going," Niall said as we got ourselfs back in the circle. Liam chuckled and spinned the bottle, it almost landed on Niall but kept going until it landed on Harry. This might be interesting. "Ohh, truth" Harry groaned. He hid his face behind his hands, awaiting for Liam to come up with a question. Liam looked at us for help, and Zayn grabbed his neck whispering into his ears.

"Ah that's.. Okay" Liam spoke, leaning away from Zayn.
"What do you want to know?" Harry asked smiling at him hesitantly, "Well Harry, have you ever wondered about your sexuality?" He asked curiously, squinting his eyes at Harry to see him better. Harry was silently choking on air, but none of them had to know.

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If I had water in my mouth then I would've spit it out, but now my mouth is drying and I'm starting to feel so attacked. How did they know that I was hesitating in whether I was straight or gay? Why do they have to make me feel so uncomfortable in the first place, they're supposed to be my friends. "I don't know.." I spoke, trying to ease the tension in the air.
"What do you mean you don't know?" Louis said, looking at me in disbelief. He inhaled harshly, I looked away from his prying eyes. I am trying very hard to not give in, to not give them that kind of information.

Because I know that I wont be able to hide my feelings once that comes out. And I'm not even ready to admit it to myself that I am that way. I can't even say the word, how might I possibly explain to my friends that I may have possibly been like that since the beginning. What if they hate me? I know they're already considering it by the way that Louis looked at me. What if bandmembers are only meant to be straight, perfect straight people that deserve this kind of life, not a stupid fag like me. "I mean I don't know, I've always been into girls." I say with as much faked truth I can.

"I don't know, I've liked girls" Niall mocks with a fake deep voice, chuckling as he spun the bottle again. "I don't understand you sometimes." He speaks looking at me as if assuring me that it's the truth. But I already know it's true, because I haven't opened myself well enough for all of them, maybe a little more to Louis than to Zayn and Liam and Niall. I love them all, but I want my relationship with them to last, more than to ruin it. "Wasn't Harry supposed to spin that bottle instead of you Niall?" Louis laughs pointing at me, the bottle was pointed at no particular where.

"I don't want to play this anymore," I speak, standing up to get out of here. To go anywhere but here. All look up at me as I stand up from the carpeted floor and I look down at them, "well if you're off then I'm off too." Louis mumbles, "I need to talk to you anyways," he says quetly looking at me directly. My heart races in speed as he flutters his eyelashes, blinking over three times per second. I was going to ask him why, but he's shrugging nialls prying hands off of himself, Niall flung himself at Louis, whining and begging for him to "play one more round." I see Louis sighing deeply, and loudly giving in to Nialls faux sweet eyes. Trust me he is just up using Louis for his own benefits, Niall only does that face when he wants his way. It seems like Louis forgot what he said and he makes himself comfortable on floor.

The last thing I see when I leave the mall living room is Louis licking his lips looking my way. Why would he want to talk, but then not even try to make a move to talk? He just gave in to Niall like that. Okay maybe I'm over exaggerating, maybe he just wanted to talk about Eleanor or something, because after all he wouldn't talk to me about us. I shake my head, there is no us. I need a constant reminder, ink carved in my skin, written on my mind. That Louis and I are not, or will ever be anything more than brothers. Even if my parents didn't give me a brother, Im getting one, and that brother is someone that I don't even want as a brother. I want him as a lover, I want him to tell me that everything is going to be alright, that the fame won't pull us apart.

But who am I kidding, he's got Eleanor. Eleanor is the one he whispers to at night, whilst the ufaithful ghosts whisper to me. It's Eleanor touching his delicate skin, while I'm touched by the blades in my bathroom, the only difference is that Eleanor sooths him, the blades won't soothe me. The blades won't make me feel better, the blades won't promise me a forever. And without that, without my forever I'm a soul stuck between the two walls off loneliness and heartbreak

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Sorry for being late, I had a mental breakdown about this and how I'd plan it and write in the future, and school is PRACTICALLY EATING MY SOCIAL LIFE UP. And to the new readers I hope you enjoy! I went from 3 readers to 150 readers over night so it's really exciting and I'm thankful ❤️
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