Show Me Around

I Couldn't Save Her

Taylor's POV

It was around 7pm when I heard the doorbell. I was up in my room. Ashley was home so I figured she would get it. I could hear muffled talking but couldn't make out anything they were saying.

Then came footsteps coming up the stairs. They stopped right outside my bedroom door and knocked.

"Come in" My bedroom door came out and Kelly was the one standing there. "Kelly?"

"Hey." I could tell he was nervous.

"You can come in and close the door." Kelly nodded and stepped in closing the door behind him. He then took a seat on the edge of my bed next to me. His legs hanging off the side. "What's up?"

"Can I ask you some questions?"

"Uh. Sure?"

"Why didn't you come see me the second you got back into town?"

"I...uhh..." I didn't really have an answer for him. Kelly raised his eyebrows. "I was scared."

"Scared of what?"

"That you would push Victoria and me away. That you wouldn't want anything to do with us."

"That's crazy. I would never do that. I may of needed sometime to process but I would of come around."

"How was I suppose to know that Kelly?"

"Really all that time we spent together sitting and talking at David and Shays graves and you think I would of pushed my child and you away?"

"It made sense in my head." I pull my knees up to my chest feeling even worse about everything then I already had. Kelly placed his hand on my knee.

"It'll be okay."

"I really don't know if it will be Kelly."

"It will be. It's going to take time."

"How am I suppose to make things okay when I can't give you the one thing you want most?"

"Taylor..."

"Kelly please just leave. I can't make things alright with you. Not when you will never get the chance to know your daughter." I laid down with my back towards Kelly. I felt the bed shift as Kelly got up to leave. Once I heard my door close I started crying. I didn't deserve his kindness.

1 Month Later

Things have been going relatively smoothly. I was back in the OR daily. I threw myself into working so I wouldn't have time to think and be depressed. Kelly and I haven't spoken in weeks. He kept trying to come over but I turned him away each time. He finally gave up.

I was sitting in my office going over charts when Ashley came into my office. She sat down in front of my desk.

I peered my eyes up at her "Do you knock?"

"Why would I?"

"Because what if something personal was happening in here?"

"Like what? Not like you sleeping with anyone Taylor."Ashley just kind of chuckled.

"Alright you had your fun. Now what is it?" I was still looking down at my charts. Ashley sat forward and got her serious face on.

"We have an emergency case on the way to the OR right now." This caught my attention I stood up.

"Why didn't you say so instead of sitting down?" I start making my way towards the door.

"Taylor wait." I stopped and turned around to face Ashley crossing my arms over my chest. "It's a 8 year old little girl who was in a car accident."

"Oh."

"If you don't feel comfortable I can get another surgeon."

"No it's fine. I can do this. Plus she may not make it if we wait." With that Ashley and I head to the OR. I scrub in to start repairing the internal bleeding.

4 Hours Later

"Shock her again!" We had been at this for over 30 minutes and have yet to get her back.

"Dr. Adams. She's gone."

"Time of death 14:26" I rip off my gloves and surgical gown and walk out of the OR. I head straight for my office. I slam the door shut and collapse on the couch. About 5 minutes later Ashley comes in.

"Tay?"

"I'm fine." I really wasn't but I was also not in the mood.

"We need to go tell the parents." I sighed and got up and followed Ashley to the OR waiting room.

I take off my scrub cap and locate the girls parents. "Are you Sierras parents?"

"Yes we are. How is she?"

I play with the scrub cap in my hand not wanting to deliver this news. "I'm sorry we did everything we could. Her internal injuries were to severe." The mother collapsed to the ground her husband catching her.

I immediately went back to my office, slammed the door and cried. How does someone so young deserve to die? Why? I felt a migraine setting in.

I walked over to my desk and pulled open one of the drawers. I pulled out the pill bottle I had in there filled with painkillers. I take 3 in hopes this headache would go away. I go lay on the couch that is in my office.

Kelly's POV

We had pulled a little girl out of a car accident earlier in the day and everyone was wondering if she made it. So we made a stop at the hospital to check on her. I enter the ER and see Ashley handing something to a nurse.

"Ashley?"

"Hey Kelly. Whatcha guys doing here?"

"We wanted to know if the little girl who was in a car accident this morning made it?" I saw the look on Ashley's face it wasn't good.

"I'm sorry guys she didn't make it. Dr. Adams worked on her for 4 hours but the damage was to extensive."

As soon as I heard Taylor's last name my heart fell. This was not a case she should of been working on. Not after losing Victoria. "How's Taylor?"

"She's taking it hard Kelly. I shouldn't of even asked her if she wanted to do the surgery."

"Thanks Ashley." The guys and me headed out of the ER to head back to 51. I shot off a text to Taylor asking her how she was doing. She read it but didn't respond.