Show Me Around

Never Alone

4 Months later

I was sitting in my office chatting and making recommendations for surgeries. I had stopped doing surgeries about 2 weeks ago per my doctor telling me to take it easy. I tried to protest but Kelly and my doctor both put their foot down.

My office door came open. I looked up to see it was Ashley standing there. She had this nervous look on her face. "Ashley?"

"Taylor you can say no."

"Ashley what is it?"

"There was a major accident and a women needs immediate surgery. We tried calling someone else but everyone is either in surgery or preparing for surgery."

"I'll do it."

"But you are not suppose..."

I cut Ashley off. "You knew I was ordered to not do surgeries but yet you still came in here and asked so it must be bad." I got up from desk and made my way to my office door. "Now let's go."

We made our way down to the OR to prepare for surgery.

"Taylor are you sure about this?"

"Ashley I took an oath. I am not going to let some women die because I'm pregnant."

Ashley had dropped the subject and walked into the OR. I finished scrubbing and headed into the OR.

I was about half through with repairing the damage the crash had cause. I had to remove her spleen and repair various bleeders. I felt a pain in my lower stomach. I played it off and acted like it was nothing. I needed to finish this surgery.

We were closing up and the pain started to get worse. I was bracing myself against the operating table.

"Dr. Adams?" I couldn't respond before I collapsed on the floor blacking out.

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Kelly's POV

I was sitting in the common room with the rest of 51. We were eating lunch all together for once. It had been a slow day. I had texted Taylor but hadn't heard from her in a couple hours.

My phone started ringing and Ashley's name flashed across my screen. My stomach immediately dropped. Ashley never called me.

"Ashley what happened?"

"Kelly it's all my fault. I asked her too." I could hear Ashley sobbing.

"What happened?" The rest of 51 had stopped eating.

"She collapsed durning surgery. They are rushing her to surgery."

"I'm on my way." I jumped up from the table and ran out to the apparatus floor. My crew followed me. I was running to my car when I heard Cruz.

"Kelly get in!" I looked to see Cruz standing by Squad 3. We loaded up and took off towards Chicago med.

I ran into the hospital stopping at the nurses station. "Where is Taylor Adams?"

"Kelly!" I turned towards the voice that shouted my name. It was Ashley. I ran straight over to her.

"Where is she? How is she?" I couldn't lose Ashley not after everything we had been through.

"They are performing a C-section. She has preeclampsia."

I could feel the tears stingy my eyes. "Is she going to make? Are they going to make it?"

"They don't know right now." I could see the tear tracks on Ashley's face. She was scared. "Kelly I'm so sorry. I shouldn't of let her perform surgery."

"Ashley stop. It's not your fault. We both know Taylor would of gone into that OR no matter what either of us said." Ashley started to cry. I wrapped her in hug. "Taylor is strong. They will both pull through this."

"I hope so."

We headed to the waiting room. Squad 3 was taken out of service. My crew sat with us waiting for some kind of news. I don't know what I'll do if I lose Taylor and the baby.

It felt like an eternity before Taylor's doctor came into the waiting room. Ashley and I both jumped up and walked over to her.

"How is Taylor? How is the baby?"

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Taylor's POV

I found myself standing at David, Victoria's and my little girls graves. Just staring. Not knowing how I got here.

"Taylor?"

I turned around around and my heart skipped a beat. "David?"

"Hey Angel." I ran over and jumped into his arms.

"Are you really here? I thought you were dead?"

"Angel I am."

"What?" I was so confused. I took a step back and looked around. Then I saw two more figures walking towards us. I couldn't make out who it was at first. "Victoria?" I looked at my best friend in disbelief. Then I looked down and saw she was holding the hand of my little girl.

"Mommy!" Victoria ran over to me. I fell to the ground and wrapped her in a hug. "I missed you mommy."

"I missed you too baby girl." I stood back up. "What's going on guys?"

"Angel you need to be happy. We all love you. I know you haven't fully let Kelly into your heart but it's okay. You are allowed to be happy."

"I miss you guys so much." I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

"We are always with you Tay. You may not see us but we are there."

"V I'm so sorry I couldn't save you. I should of been there for you."

"Taylor it is okay. Do not blame yourself for me taking my own life. I was broken. Nothing you would of said would have changed my mind."

"Maybe I could of fixed you through."

"Tay you can't fix everyone."

I knew she was right but I couldn't help but feel guilty. I was a doctor. I should of been able to do something.

"Mommy don't be sad anymore. I want you to be happy with daddy and my baby sister. They need you."

"Angel she is right. It is not your time."

"But I want to be back in your arms." I missed them all so much it hurt.

"And you will be one day but today is not that day. You have a life to live and many more lives to save. You got this."

I embraced David in another hug. "Watch after my little girl?"

"Always Angel. She has my sister and me with her always." David took my face in his hands. "It's time for you to live again. Be happy again."

I closed my eyes and rest my face against his hand. "I'll do my best." David let go of my face. I turned to my best friend and gave her a hug. "Ashley and I miss you so much."

"I know Tay. You guys are my best friends and always will be."

I nodded my head. I then bent down to my little girl. "These two are very important to mommy and they will keep you safe."

"I know mommy." She wrapped me in another hug. "Give daddy a hug for me. Tell him I wish we could of had more time together."

"I will sweetheart." I stood back up and took a few steps back.

"Angel it's time."

"I love you all." It felt like my world was spinning and everything started to fade always. Back into the darkness I went.