Can You Even Kiss A Ghost? (M!Reader x Dsmp!Wilbur)

Chapter 18: Lost

Y/N was fixing the electricity seeing phil wasn't awake yet and as soon as everything turned on an alarm went off in Phil house. A quiet bell rang from Techno's room, awakening him. Y/N Took in a deep breath. Before leaving his heart seemed to slow down greatly, the smell of toast filled the air, was he having a stroke? His brain felt dizzy and heard tv static, not loud white noise but TV static and clocks ticking. Was he dehydrated he thought to himself, he moved slowly to grab water out of his bag and took a sip of water only to fall on his knees to his elbows and he fell. Hard. The water bottle broke and it didn't help that the water traveled through the shattered glass everywhere on the wooden floor. He held his chest tightly, feeling his heartbeat slowing down, He felt like anyone could hear his heart at this point. Flashes upon flashes of different floor boards and different skin tones in y/n's hand holding him from laying on the ground in pain. Seeing everything in different colors. Then another flash much different then the others, he saw shoes, they belonged to someone he can't quite think about, they were Nikes white and black. Original if he was going to be honest. Could've been mistaken as sneakers at first glance.  Then a small flash of blood was on the shoes making y/n cry. 
     "Please .. s-stop" he felt like he was glitching, like a bug on his computer. Everything was hurting. His mind was twisting and turning the feeling of being split in half was happening right now. Whispers started to go through his head along with hearing the tv static in his ears, there wasn't white noise it was just high tensity tv static. He was coughing and everything around him was spinning, he tried getting up but he couldn't. He wasn't sure if he was moving or not moving. His body went numb and all he could do was stay on the floor and cry hoping someone can help him. Philza came through the door and saw y/n on the ground shaking and trembling. He went back to his house to grab a potion. Y/N didn't know he was there, he was struggling with how to not faint but he couldn't because he was panicking about dying. His head felt like it had been split open, all the memories, new and old seem to show over and over to him like his suppose to understand something but he didnt.  He felt so lost and helpless it was unbearable. Y/n almost gave in, his eyes slowly starting to shut before he heard a voice.
    "W..what.?" Y/N shakingly whispered. 
      "Can you move?" A voice said again, y/n shaked his head before trying to extend his other arm out but it seemed to have failed falling back at its position from before. He still couldn't feel it move, he didn't think it moved.  Philza took note of this. Philza asked techno to grab wilbur as he helped y/n. Techno left out the doors. Y/N felt himself being moved at least from what his blurry eyes can tell he was moved to his side. He heard a ripping sound but the stadic was so loud that he hardly noticed it. Philza grabed out a syringe and poked Y/N in the back with it. Y/N noticed his breathing became normal and his vision was unblurring slowly but his body still felt numb. Philza noticed a change and took a deep breath.

He took out the needle and placed a bandaid on y/ns back. Slowly coming back to reality a faint sound of hissing was ringing in his ears until it stopped. Y/N's eyes adjusted to the room, seeing his shirt was ripped off him and seeing Philza exhale out seeing that his ok. The smell of toast went away as well. Y/N started to breathe normally as he got seeing his shirt just fall off him. The backside was ripped open. His back kinda felt uncomfortable like he just been pricked from a needle. He started to adjust slowly getting up, and Phil went to aid y/n to stand up. The smelt lavender and Gunpowder caught y/n attention. Y/N at phil seeing the old man smile. He looked so worried for y/n and y/n looked over to his side and saw techno come in with wilbur. Wilbur looked scared and Techno just looked empty but had worrying eyes. Y/Ns senses started coming back to him and made him shake. 
       "I've lost it.. I don't know anymore." Y/N admitted as he cried. Y/N felt lost. He felt like he had completely lost it, he didn't know who he was, he felt lost with himself and it didn't feel good to him. Philza sighed, patting the sad idiots back and asking Wilbur to come closer. 
      " Hey come on now mate.. you haven't entirely lost it. Y/N, i've been here for a very long time now and I certainly know when someone has lost it" philza laughed trying to make the sad oura away and it was working. Wilbur went to give y/n a hug, the boy flinched but accepted his hug. Y/N felt better but the tears still ran down his face. He still felt lost. Philza sighed, y/n still looked upset and lost, he pondered how to distract him from feeling this way then he remembered. Tommys letter. 
"How would you guys like to see tommy and his hotel, it'll be a great distraction." Philza said with a small smile, y/n thought about it, he hadn't seen tommy in so long so it wouldn't be harmful to see him again. This made y/n smile to see Tommy again. 

Everyone got to the SMP and saw the red hotel, it must've been tommys. Of course all the egg stuff was still there. It wasn't gonna leave anytime soon. Seeing the hotel looking really good. Honestly philza was amazed Tommy was doing something. He was improving. Y/N was more excited to see Tommy than anything. Once they got to the hotel they saw Tommy and Sam nook discussing about the opening. 
    "I'm sure everyone will love it very much, 
Oh look visitors!" Sam Nook pointed with a smile, Tommy turned around seeing his family waiting for him outside the gate. He was very happy seeing them. Including y/n. He opened the gate and gave philza a hig first and started to talk to him about the hotel then Wilbur got into the convo and so did the rest of the family. Ranboo and Y/N stayed out just smiling happily to see that Tommy was smiling and joyful. Acting like a kid. 
   "Oh my god Ranboo! Come come you won't believe..." Tommy then brought Ranboo into the convo, now it was just y/n who stayed silent from the convo. After Tommy talked with everyone he looked at y/n and gave him a tight hug. Y/N wasn't expecting it at the slightest but hugged back. 
    "Hey big man!" Y/N said with a small smile as he ruffled Tommy's hair. The boy groaned getting out of y/ns grasp and fixing his already messy hair. 
      "Aaaa! you messed it up >:(" Tommy complained messing up his hair, doing more then what y/n did. Y/n rolled his eyes before Tommy started talking about the process him and Sam Nook made. Of course Philza went to talk with Sam Nook about the hotel, Tommy dragged Techno, Ranboo, Wilbur and Y/N into his hotel for a tour. Before they got in the doors they heard a boy yell. "TOMMYYYYY YOU WEREN'T GONNA WAIT FOR ME!?" The yelling boy was Tubbo who jumped the fence and looked at Tommy with sad eyes as he tripped on his feet. Tommy laughed and helped his friend from the ground and held onto Tubbos hand as they went in. The hotel interior was nice and red. It gave off That big man's energy but was more elegant and fancy. Tommy showed them around, his stories about collecting all the items were fun to listen to too. Philza was behind the group with Sam Nook still chatting away, Techno went behind the group to be with philza and convat with them. Y/N and Wilbur were linked arms. Y/N looked up at the tall man and smiled before looking back down at his steps and then everything Tommy was showing. It was at the end of the tour and everyone was hungry. Tommy gave everyone food on the house in his dinner in the hotel, y/n did admit the place was pretty fucking cool. Tommy was talking with Tubbo and Ranboo at the "big man table" while the adults sat in a booth talking about philzas adventures. In all honesty it was very relaxing and calm for y/n, he felt safe for once however the sounds of ticking made him stop focusing on the conversation. Wilbur raised a brow looking at y/n whose face had shock and horror. 
    "Y/N?" Wilbur placed a hand on y/n. As he did a loud TNT explosion went off in the distance at the prison. The vibrations hit everyone. Y/N started crying and looked over at Ranboo who was also staring back at y/n. Everyone went to look out the window seeing Awesamdude running around the perimeter of the prison. A large siren rang as a security breach was now in full lock down. Then the sirens stopped seeing that they all got a notification that it was Ponk accidentally blowing up something too close to the prison. It made everyone's hearts jump, but the ticking was still in y/ns ears. It wouldn't leave. 

After the Tour and Dinner, They all said their goodbyes to Tommy besides Tubbo. He was staying with Tommy. Y/N was still in a shocked form. His body was still on edge and his ears still ticked, the ticking sounded like a clock. A clock counting down to something. Ranboo seemed to be quiet as well. He looked tired but seemed scared to sleep. Once they got home, Y/N was afraid to go in his home. It felt unsafe. 
   "Y/N, are you alright?" Wilbur asked, opening the door. Y/N hesitantly went inside, the ticking was still in his ears. He gulped. Realizing wilbur is waiting for an answer y/n groaned and pinched his nose to try and control the loud ticking. 
   "Im ok wilbur… I'm just. I'm just tired." Y/N lied through his teeth but he was also telling the truth, he was tired. Mentally. Wilbur doubted y/n but did not question it. He sighed, took off his coat and went to the bedroom. Wilbur followed y/n on the bed. Wilbur cuddled with y/n and y/n did the same. The ticking was still there.

Y/NS eyes closed, the sound of hissing started up.

// ello, This is a bit shorter chapter, im preparing yAll for much more, hopefully theyll be better. Im working on 3 chapters atm so i hope your ready to cry. Idk if theyll make you cry but prepare for ansgt and yeah see you next chapter :D//