Where is he?

PT. 2

Kaminari POV

I was nervous, I've never done this. I've never told a person my feelings let alone my feelings romantically towards them, it's just... I can't explain it. Your heart feels like it's beating fast but also not beating. Your head gets full of thoughts that could and couldn't happen. 'What if' questions hitting you left and right. Knowing this could ruin, make stronger, or leave a relationship in ruins. So I've been here for 10 minutes contemplating if this it the right thing to do. Or maybe not. Maybe I should text Jirou that I wasn't feeling well. Maybe I was flooded with homework. Yeah that one may work.
"Kaminari..." I hear. I jolt up and look behind me. It was Jirou.
Jirou POV

"Yeah we're meeting up in 5, by the hallways." I tell the girls.
"Yayyyy" Uraraka shouts, and everyone cheers.
"Honestly I didn't think Kaminari-San would make the first move. I always felt like you'd bring it up and force him to tell you how he felt." Yaomomo adds.
I blush and stutter.
"I-is that how you see me? I mean... I could since he is pretty dumb. But at least he'll say how he feels."
They all nod and they follow me and wait downstairs.
"Kaminari..." I call out.
"Jirou..." he responds back. I feel my legs kinda wobbly and kinda spacing in and out. Jesus I didn't think I could find someone who would love me for me... unless he's joking or gonna say something else.

Kaminari POV

Ok, it's now or never I think. I was practicing with the bros on how I should start or what I should say. Since I've always kinda flirted with Jirou but also not? Like I'd call her cute and stuff like that to see her reaction. Likes she cute and stuff but the reaction made it better because she deserved to know how much I like her and how she should love herself and not care what others think. Mostly Mineta but he's toned it down. Even supporting me and being nicer to all the girls, even writing a hand written apology to each of them. But he most time on the one to Jirou since tho he didn't know it, he made her the most uncomfortable about her body.
"Hey Jirou, i uhh needed to tell you something."
"Ok, what is it?" She responds.

Third Person POV
"Ok I, I uh, I think, I uh..." The blonde said while looking that the ground. Avoiding eye contact.
"You... what?" She purple haired rocker asks.
"I think I love you. There I said it. Phew it felt good to say that."
"Really, how can I know you're serious?" She responds.
"Huh?" He says confused.
"How can I know you're not playing around or anything, like those times you call me cute?" She retorts.
"I don't underst-"
"How can I tell you're being serious?"
"I don't know what you... I just..."

Jirou POV
I said that and I could see his face muscles turn into a frown. I don't know why I said that. Something in my head told me that this was a joke like the times he's called me cute. He sincere.
"There's no way someone like you could love me, you probably knew I was the only option you had a remote shot of herring with, huh?" Why did I say that?
"Is... is that what you think?" He says looking at the ground.
"It's like when you play that game of seeing my reaction when you called me cute. I know you don't think that, there's no way. Mineta probably set you up to this."

Kaminari POV
Man, those words hurt man. Is this how she felt? A simple 'sorry I don't feel the same' would've sufficed.
"Is... really? After I've done for and with you, you honestly think this is a joke?" I say passive aggressively. Her face lights up.
"Who told you this?"
"No one, it's just what I think..." she responds with.
"Well it may be true I want to see your reaction when I call you those words. That's because I want to see you smile and feel better about yourself. You helped me show off my guitar skills and people think my voice isn't that bad when I sing. You've helped me through so much."
"I didn't... know that." She says.
"You should know how I truly feel too, since I do stuff for you too. My 'Yay' mode to help you smile, helping with my one good subject English, supporting you when we saw your room. But in return I get a. 'Yamming-way', 'Pikachu', and just calling me an 'idiot' nothing else."
"Is that really how you feel, how can I know you're not lying?" She asked me.
I didn't wanna say the following but to prove a point I said.
"Let me kiss you, let me show you how I feel. Only if you'd let me."
"I... I don't kn-" she gets cut off when he closes in on her face and is a few inches away.
"Would you?" I ask her.
"I don't know..." she says as he puts his hand around her cheek.
Third person POV
As they got closer something hit Kaminari.
"This is pointless, like honestly. I've told you how I've felt, yet you've not told me how you felt towards me." He shouted.
"I don't know what to say..." She tells him.
"Don't worry about, you obviously don't feel the same."
"What no." She says.
"I'm sorry, I didn't wanna make you feel uncomfortable. I won't call you cute, I won't tell you how amazing you are, nor how much I love you. Not only as a love interest, but as a friend... my best friend. I'll get out of your hair since you'll like that more than me. Outside of school and the dorms I'll try to leave you alone. I'm sorry for wasting your time." He says and walks away.
"Where are you-" She says.
"Away from here, sorry again. Just forget what I said. And leave me alone."

And that was the last time the two talked to each other face to face. Man, I hate reliving my life.

Authors note: first chapter today. Lets GOOOOOOO