Where is he?

Maybe I shouldn't come back.

Trigger warning. Some mentions of Suicide and Suicidal actions. So please don't read if you don't feel comfortable with it even if it's not 'too serious' but still I love you.

Kaminari POV
Man, fuck Todoroki. Asshole. He doesn't have an iota of an idea the shit I've fucking been through. The fucking scars left physically and emotionally. Coming up to me in my weak mental state and coming after me. A simple 'don't come back' would've sufficed. Jesus man, like I needed the new number one's kid to be held back. Like I was able to hold him back. Fuck him man. I knew I shouldn't have came back. This is annoying and my head hurts now. The scars I've left on myself from pushing myself here, from how I have handle this situation and others, and from events that have led up to this. He doesn't know how mentally unstable I've been the past few months. But no, it's my fault, I did this, I SHOULD'VE stopped myself, just have been happy .
Shit my head hurts more now. I leave to get some pills and water. As I make my way downstairs I see that no one is there. I check the time: 3:49am. If I wanted to, I could just grab my shit and leave, leave them again and this time never come back and change my number. As I thought of the plan I grabbed a cup of water and went to the cabinet we kept Advil and other OTC drugs. I pop some pills and take a swig of my water. I sit down and grab a slice of pizza we've had in the fridge the last couple of days and warm it up. As I wait I hear someone come down. Great...
"Kaminari-Kun? What are you doing up so late?" Uraraka asks me.
"Oh hey Uraraka, ya know. Couldn't sleep, plus I was kinda hungry. Also my head was hurting so I took some Advil." I answer.
"Hey about Todoroki-Kun, I'm sor-" I cut her off.
"That? Don't worry, honestly. It didn't mean anything to me." I lie.
"Could honestly care less, I'm just doing my own thing, ya know?" I say and she nods. She tells me to take care as she grabs a cup of water and says goodnight. I made sure to pull my baseball sleeve on my right arm up. To make sure she didn't see anything. As I eat away I hear someone else come down.
"Oh hey Kaminari. What are you doing up so late?" I hear and turn to see Ojiro rubbing his eyes.
"Oh couldn't sleep and I got kinda hungry." I say laughing it off.
"Hey man, sorry for Todoroki. I mean he didn-"
"Hey don't worry, it's not serious. Could care less of what 'Mr. Cool' could say. If I cared what people thought of me I wouldn't be here... which I'm not as I'm not enrolled here..." I say drifting away seeing Ojiro's eyes shoot up.
"Don't worry bro, I'm ok. Honestly." I tell him while biting my pizza. He nods and grabs a Gatorade from the fridge, wishing me a goodnight. Man lot of people coming down at this hour, WeirdChamp. As I eat I hear more footsteps. 'Great, who else wanna come?' I think to myself.
"Hmm Kaminari, what are you doing? It's like 4am, you should be asleep." I hear Jiro tell me.
"Oh uh... just got hungry and came down here I guess." I say laughing scratching my head.
"So... how are you feeling?" She asks me.
"Doing well, just chillin I guess." I answered.
"What what Todoroki said?"
"Couldn't care less what he said, honesty. If I did then I'd have more scars and still be enrolled here. Like it's not serious, we have different views. And personally I'd rather not interact with the future number 1's son. I'd damage his career I guess." I answer truthfully.
"Oh ok. Still I'm sorry for what happened. I should've said something." She says with her voice cracking like she was holding back tears. I stand up and hug her.
"Please don't cry, it hurts me. I understand where you're coming from. But please stop. I don't like this side of you, it hurts a lot." I tell her calming her down while patting her head. She stops.
"Sorry... sorry... sorry for everything. I didn't want to hurt you."
"Heh, can't hurt me more than what I've done to myself."
"You what?" She asks.
Shit, she had to know eventually. Last few sentences kinda gave off that picture. I need to change the subject.
"Hmm? What? Did something happen?" I act dumbfounded.
"No, no go back. We can't go over what you said." She insists on me telling her.
Well it's now or never.

Authors note: Gameing