Tying The Severed Strings

13

"I'm going now." Nathan notified me.

I paid him a short glance before I spoke. "Yeah, ingat ka."

I then immediately turned my gaze upon my laptop. I'm currently writing a story--which soothes me so much. I mean, I have been fond of writing ever since I was in high school but I guess, I just don't have what it takes? But it's fine. I don't think that I need recognition or any of that kind from this hobby since it's what relieves my stress, after all. That's all I need.

I was so into writing when I heard Nathan stomped his foot which got my attention. He's still here? "I thought you're going?" I asked.

He just looked at me. "What? Something wrong?" I asked once again. "You're really that cold towards me, Talia?" He asked. I don't know if I'm imagining things on my own or is his voice sounded like he's pained?

"What do you mean by that?"

He intently looked at me while putting his bag on top of the glass table. I forgot to mention that we're on the living room right now, near to the main door of the house. "I know you said 'ingat ka' but you just threw a glance and that's it. Is there even any sincerity in that?"

Oh goodness. "My goodness, Nathan. Iyon na yon?"

"Hindi lang yong, 'iyon na yon' for me, Talia. Do you really despise me that much that you can't even say that remark with sincerity?"

I can't help but shake my head. Is he a child? Getting upset dahil lang doon? He's like someone throwing tantrums right now, my gosh. "Shouldn't you be thankful that I even said 'ingat ka'? I mean, do you think we're through with what you did to me in the cruise last time? No, we're not Nathan."

He remained silent. Maybe I got him because I mentioned what happened in the cruise. "And for the record, you saw me writing, right? I'm getting into it already and here you are, ruining that moment. Do you know how hard it is to write something and focus on it?" I said, upset.

No one spoke after I did. He remained silent and so do I. "Sir Nathan? Pasensya sa po kung nakaka-abala ako pero nais ko lang pong sabihin na nandito na po si Sir Hector."

He went near to the glass table to get his bag. He walked towards the door and then went out. Saved by the bell, I guess?

I mean, if we we're to discuss what happened in the cruise here, in the living room.. lots of people, maids and staffs, would hear about it. Well, they will think that nothing's wrong about.. having an "intimate scene"... between us two since we're married. But we can't say for sure.

And another reason is that I would be so embarrassed to talk about it right now. Honestly, I still can't digest what happened to us. Him.. forcing me to.. do that. I mean, we we're so near in doing that thing. I still can remember how scared I was but I tried my best to fight him off because.. I just can't make any mistake while we are pretending and still processing our annulment. That would make things even worse.

I got seated and started writing again. I was trying to type in everything that I had in my mind kanina but dang it, nawala na ulit ako sa mood. Nakakainis.

Tumayo ako to get some snacks. Maybe cookies? I don't know. I guess I'll just go with what is available in our kitchen.

I found some chips instead of cookies. Ugh. Should I just bake? But I don't have the ingredients here. Ayoko namang mag-utos pa sa mga tao dito para lang mamili dahil gusto ko ng cookies.

Tahimik lamang akong nag-iisip nang biglang tumunog ang aking telepono. A text message?

I put down the chips I was holding and went to where my phone is. As I open my phone, I immediately saw the text. It was from Sam.

[From: Sam]

Good morning? I guess? I hope you already had your breakfast by now. Anyway, I just want to say sorry for what I did last time. I realized that provoking Nathan like that was a wrong move. I shouldn't have dahil baka mamaya lalo ka pa niyang gawan ng hindi maganda because of what I did. I'm really sorry. I hope you can forgive me. Please?

He already did, Sam. He already did something to me. But I can't just say that. Ayokong lalong mag-alala si Sam. Going here in Manila and staying here just to be sure na okay ako, is already a big thing for me. He did that to make sure that everything's fine and if not, sigurado akong didiretso siya dito to fetch me and drive me back sa probinsya. I know he would do that. I know.

[To: Sam]

Hey, it's fine! You don't need to say sorry for that. You just did that out of anger. And yes, I had my breakfast already pero nagugutom pa ako. HAHAHAHA You know me, Sam. Hindi enough sakin yung basta umagahan. Gusto ko laging may snacks na kasunod.

I tried to kid around so he won't suspect that something had really happened. I placed my phone on the top on the glass table and start fixing my stuff. I plan to just go in my bedroom and see if some miracle would happen to me like, suddenly getting hyped into writing again.

I was about to go upstairs when my phone "beeped", notifying me that someone texted me or should I say, replied to me. I placed my laptop in the table again and just then, I opened my phone.

[From: Sam]

Maybe eat some cookies, I think? You're really fond of cookies especially the ones that I bake, right? You might feel grossed or cringed about this but I really feel proud that you love my cookies. Should I bake you some?

He will bake for me?! I immediately went upstairs to get ready. I mean, it's easy-peasy, right? I will get to eat the food that I'm currently craving for, cookies, and on top of that, it's Sam that's making them! Sobrang sarap kaya ni Sam mag-bake! Talo pa nga ako non.

I placed my laptop on my study table and then I started getting myself ready. Oh! But first, I need to reply to Sam! Goodness, I was so excited, I even forgot to reply!

[To: Sam]

Really?! You would bake for me? OMG! Sobrang gusto ko ng cookies ngayon. Totoo nga niyan, naghahanap ako dito kaso wala naman. I was planning on baking some for myself then your text came so naudlot ako sa pagpa-plano but who thought that this would happen? Sobrang right timing mo naman! Of course, gusto ko no!

Inilapag ko sa aking kama ang telepono ko at inayos na ang damit na susuotin ko. Mag-shopping na rin kaya ako ng mga bagay na pwede kong gamitin para makapagluto? Or mga bagay na pwedeng gamiting pan-decorate? Ang boring naman kasi kung puro na lang ako utos dito and I'm not fond of doing that kind of thing--ordering someone around. Yikes.

After finishing my look, I went to my bed to see Sam's reply.

[From: Sam]

Talk about right timing. Then, I'll fetch you there in your house. Is that fine with you? Tapos punta muna tayo ng mall to buy some ingredients. Sakto kulang rin ako sa gamit right now dahil kakalipat ko lang sa condo.

I tapped the message tab to reply. Shuck finally makakagala na rin ako.