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to lose // gojo/geto *nsfw*

my friend came up with this and then my brain went crazy and im so sorry for what you are about to read bc my brain is so crap sometimes kajbaj but yeah this is inspired by scotty doesn't know bc my friend is so smart- ily bestie bae

warnings: afab reader, smut, typos, cursing, cheating on s/o's, hurt/comfort in the end, a little bit of angst if you squint, some manga spoilers so if you're an anime only you might want to skip this chapter :)

i do not condone cheating, but for the fic's plot, i am including it as a means of coping (which still isn't okay) with current events

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for months now, you have been dating geto. he was so sweet to you, always treating you better than you thought you deserved. it wasn't until you had been dating for three months did he finally confront you about your issues with self worth and help you to build yourself up. it took a bit of work, but with his help, you grew into a more confident person who was certain of her place and value.

but recently, he'd been drifting away from you. it all happened after that fight with fushiguro. you knew it was hard on him. he probably blamed himself for a bulk of what had happened that day. you tried to talk to him, to help him the way he helped you, but he just wouldn't listen. he wouldn't even look you in the eye. it was frustrating. it wasn't just that he was neglecting you, it was that he was neglecting himself as well. whenever you caught glimpses of him, you swore he looked thinner and paler.

you'd talked to gojo about it, hoping he could help him since he was his best friend, but apparently geto wouldn't listen to anybody. that didn't help to calm the nerves swelling inside you. not even a little.

"i'm worried, satoru." you said as you paced the room. "i'm pretty sure he isn't eating much, he's definitely not getting much sun, and he won't even listen to you."

gojo smiled at you from where he was sitting. he'd invited himself into your room in the middle of one of your bouts of anxiety and decided your bed would be the best place to sit, even though there was a perfectly good chair instead. 

"you shouldn't worry so much. i know him, he wouldn't do anything rash. if you worry so much, maybe you should just, like, break into his room or somethin'. i dunno." he said, still smiling.

you sighed. "this isn't a joke! have you seen him? he looks awful. i've never seen him like this and you know you haven't either, so don't tell me you know for certain that 'it'll all turn out to be fine'."

"look, i know you're worried out of your pretty little mind, but you need to relax a bit." he said, smile falling and brows furrowing in worry. "ever since he started drifting away, you've started neglecting your own needs as well. you look about as bad as he does!"

you sighed again, pinching the bridge of your nose. "i know, i know... i just- he was there for me, y'know? when i needed him. and now he needs me and i'm not there for him."

"but you let him help you. he isn't letting you help him and you can't help that. there isn't much you can do now, it's kind of out of your control." he said, leaning to the side, propping himself up on his elbow and resting his head on his fist. "the least you can do is take care of yourself for now. if he knew you were tearing yourself apart over him, he would hate it and you know that. do him a favor and take care of yourself."

looking over at satoru, you smiled a bit. "... yeah, i guess you're right... well, since you're the one who suggested i take care of myself, would you like to go out with me?"

"go out with you?" he sputtered. "what? why? huh?"

you rolled your eyes, laughing a bit. "yes, go out. let's get some sun today! we can stop by a mall or something, i dunno. let's just get out for a bit and act like normal kids."