Falling Asleep With A Smile ~ A Neville Longbottom fanfiction

IX ~ Dear Diary,

September 16 1993

Dear Diary,

It's currently 11pm ish and I'm sitting in my bed writing here because the others are asleep and I can't sleep, so why not?

Being back at Hogwarts is great, really. I have been here now for about two weeks now and it has been good, it's just that I would have wished for it to be better than it really is. Before, I only had Susan as a really close friend and without her I probably wouldn't even be here anymore. Actually I should feel great, because now I have many good friends. Susan still is my closest friend out of them all but now I have Ginny too and thanks to her I have gotten to know Luna and Neville better, and thanks to Neville I have gotten to know Seamus and Dean who are really nice, and thanks to Ginny again I am even closer to the golden trio now than before. So let me just say that this time here should have been amazing due to a bunch of people.

However the problem is that the whole Draco-situation has been really stressful, I think. He still doesn't talk to me, every time we see eachother he either treats me as air or makes a sharp turn to avoid me. I have tried to talk to him multiple times after class but he is gone right after it, in my opinion there is no point in even trying anymore, it's his loss, although Susan keeps nagging me about it so I guess I will try a little bit more and see what happens, she knows me better than I know myself so I have to listen and do what she says.

Me and Susan have finally visited the gryffindor common room and it is actually kind of nice and very cozy, although it is smaller compared to the way I thought it would have been, I thought that for being Dumbledores favorite house it should have been larger but maybe that's just me. We studied a bit with the gryffindors and then just hung out, ate some candy and talked, it was really fun.

Sirius Black is still on the run, it kind of freaks me out to know that the murderer could be anywhere, he could be in Hogwarts at any time, but I don't think Dumbledore will let that happen. The fact that I am related to him makes it even more scary, like first of all I got to be a Malfoy, and second of all I am related to a murderer. However I am not as unlucky as Harry Potter, the last two years he has put himself in real danger and I'm sure that the Chamber of secrets scenario wasn't the last time.

Herbology still is my absolute favorite class of them all but Remus Lupin is starting to become one of my favorite teachers, also defence against the dark arts is getting more interesting after each lesson. About a week ago we got to learn about boggarts, they are this shapeshifting creature that changes after the persons greatest fear. The first lesson about it wasn't very long because when Harry did it, it changed into a dementor so Professor Lupin had to dismiss the class. However the next lesson we had about them I got to do it and it changed into Susan lying dead on the floor, it was really horrible but I stopped it quickly.

Oh and yeah before I forget, when Harrys' boggart turned into a dementor Professor Lupin jumped in front of it to make it change and easier stop it with the word 'Riddikulus', but the thing was that when he jumped in front of it the boggart of course changed into his fear and I don't think many noticed but it turned into a full moon. So I have this theory that, what if Professor Lupin is a werewolf? I know that it might sound crazy but like hear me out, he has scars over his face that looks like some kind of animal could have caused it, and who knows maybe his whole body is covered in scars. He also looks kind of tired and when a full moon is his biggest fear then I think either he has a friend that is a werewolf or he is one himself. 

But really, I don't know, It's just a theory. Probably this theory came to mind because I'm bored and nothing else. So yeah, I guess that's it.