Stronger

Stronger-This is me

I looked around our lunch table. Everyone was laughing,throwing things around,my friends were gossiping and teasing me as usual. But me? I was in my own world,I have the skills to look like I am listening but really I am thinking about hard core issues. Oh I wonder if he likes me.. I mean he stares at me he gives me the signs surley he does! But deep inside I knew once again I was kidding myself and would soon be trampled on.Except this time I did not know if I could stand any more of feeling unvalued and feeling like dirt. Why? Because a couple of sixteen  year olds could make me feel the urge to end my life. Yeh this all sounds pretty dramatic by now but this is my life and I deal with so much pain that it wont hurt for some people to understand. Now dont get me wrong I love my life but there is the negative element to it. Ok so I am not exactly poor or abused,but thats where the problem is... it upsets me that stupid things can take over my life and make me feel crap about myself when I have great family and friends. See.. here I am lost deep in thought yet again! Oh sorry took my sweet time to introduce myself,I'm Darcy. Darcy Naya Ray King,I'm of mixed race,yeh I love that about myself. That I can embrace so many other cultures and be a part of their traditions. Trust me I have not forgotten my old roots. I'm half Mexican,quarter Egyptian and quarter Dutch. What a mix right? ! Anyways my best friend Zara was questioning me about my latest crush and they were looking at me with this irritating smile. I dont understand.. shouldent they know all will fail yet again? Guess not since they never want to understand the serious stuff in my life for them its all about the fun so I guess leaving everything bottled up inside of me has effected me mentally. Jeez this story is starting of depressing right ahha well let me spice it up for you  ;)