Stronger

Forgotten Dreams

Its been six months since Kyle's death. Like I have said in my mums case...none of us got over his death but we learnt to live with it. I turned seventeen,wiser and older yet still lost. My love for Carl grew day by day. On my seventeenth birthday me and Zara were having a sleepover. She suddenly said to me "You like Carl dont you?" I was all set to deny it but then suddenly I sighed. Why lie anymore? "Yes I do Zara,I promise I wont do anything to your relationship,my feelings will stay with me and I.." "SHUSH" she interupted me from rambling on. "Listen before me and Carl had a relationship... properly...that day in Vegas,he made it clear to me he liked you but because he saw he was getting no where,he was ready to move on. I agreed and we decided we would try a relationship but it never worked ok. I just dident want to break it of with him unless I knew he would get somewhere with you. I never felt that way about him..he was there for me when I felt most vunerable so I jumped at the chance of being with him. He talks about you all the time,Darcy you made a lot of mistakes but this time go do what you should do!" I listen to this gobsmacked,suddenly I start turning red and Zara teases me. We giggle all night about Carl's antiques and I find myself falling in love with the boy whos a clown. A simply gorgeous clown.

The next morning I rush downstairs,pick at my waffles and go to the park where Carl always is. "Hey boy" I say and sit down on the grass beside him. "Hey girl...what brings you here". "Oh nothing just thought I would find my fav clown here thats all". He chuckles and it sounds gloriouse.

"Care to join me in my sunbathing session?" He asks cheekily. "Sureee thing :D" I reply. We both soak in the sun and suddeny we link hands. "I'm sorry..." he says. "You keep saying that but you never say why." I say confused. "I say this because I'm sorry that I love you." Before I can take those words in,he leans in and kisses me.Suddenly we are in each others arms lying on the grass like lunatics. But I dont care because I love him and most of all he loves me!!! His lips feel soft on mine,they taste of honey,strawberries and forgotten dreams. I pull away from him for a second cause thats all I can bear. "I love  you " I whisper. "I know" he says then smiles and pulls me back in. We stay there just kissing because it feels right. Our lips lock like they were meant to be,and I lie on the grass with my boy ready to move on in my life....