READ MY MIND

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all these little blue men
dancing around me,
they see right through me.
i try so desperately to be a mirror-
reflect them, deflect me-
but all i manage to become
is a window. transparent, empty.
null and void,
my attempts to hide, to shield.
i am not safe here,
these little blue men seek
to hurt me, to damage me.
they peek under my pants,
into my life.
ugly, ugly, ugly are their hearts-
but they still smile more than me.
they find joy
in my suffering.
while i can't even
find the energy to keep breathing.