𝑷𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒚 𝑺𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒔 [MOSTLY ATSUMU]

hey.....

So hi guys,

I just wanted to address few things today. Recently one qween to whom I follow told all of her followers the trauma she went through and this has encouraged me to do so to.

She told everyone about how she was raped, abused and went through immense trauma all while joking about it, and when I read what she have went through I couldn't help but feel like crying myself.

Um... so when I was around 8 year old I was sexually assaulted by my own uncle and well it gave me a deep trauma of being touched. I told no one about it, not even my own mother. After that for next one year I felt scared about going near strangers, I think my mom was getting suspicious so my uncle stopped touching me.
Uh...um for next 5 years I forgot about the assault event happening and well let my guards down. Big mistake I know. So I'm having a sleep over at my uncles house, the house is small and my aunt is present, his kids are sleeping next to me, both 4 and 5 year old girls.

At night I'm sleeping, my cousins and sister are sleeping next to me and my uncle comes and sleeps next to me. I didn't say anything about it and just scoot away cause I thought he wanted to sleep next to his daughter (what a dumbass ik)

When im scooting away he grabs me and pulls me towards him and started touching me. He nearly raped me if it wasn't for his daughter waking up. He quickly left. Now if you might ask why I didn't scream, it's cause I was shocked and frozen. I didn't tell anyone about this incident and just wrote it in diary cause I knew if I told someone everyone would blame me.

My mom read my diary shocked she called my aunt and my aunt called my uncle mother over to our house. I'm here crying not wanting to deal with it since I was already traumatized enough that I have developed insomnia. I- when they confronted him, he pushed all the blame on me. He said, "she was hugging me a few days ago, how can you say I assaulted her!?" And his mother dismissed everything by saying that I might have just dreamed of it. I was not even ready to speak to him when I was forced to confront him. Currently I can't stand being in a room with men alone even for a min, I can't stand being touched, I can't go a day doubting myself and thinking that maybe it was actually a dream even tho I know it wasn't. And it all cause I was nearly raped, doubted upon, blamed for everything, and forced to do a confrontation when I was not ready. I just wanna say, not everyone is strong and can't fight back, we have to learn I know but currently I don't have any will power to fight back.

But you know who had this power, CHOKEMENISHINOYA had this power. She was strong that she went through everything and still was strong to smile. She had depression and still smiled. Currently she is in coma cause some dude couldn't handle being rejected. She was beaten up and is currently fighting. I made this post just cause I looked up to this strong girl, who is still fighting.

Give her all the love she deserves and I really hope for her speedy recovery and also to all the girls, guys and non binary people who went through such inhuman act.

I love you all💜