Choosing Fate (Firelight Sequel)

Chapter 10: Im back! Take me back?

Recap:

Everyone seemed to be alert now, someone, I think Demetri, left with Renesmee, to keep her busy. I was glad, I didnt want her seeing me like this, it would only hurt her, and I couldnt have that. Shes been doing so well, she finally stopped crying in her sleep since he left.

If she saw me in this state, I knew it would all start again, she'd start blaming herself for this, she'd push me and everyone else out again, and... well, it wouldnt be good!

The tears came, and I started shaking. The reality of it all sinking in. Edward was gone, he left. He wasnt going to come back. I had to suck it up, I had to get over him, and I had to move on.

But could I move on? Would I move on?

"Its okay Bells, Its alright. Let it out, Let it out hun," Jake soothed me.

A/N

Back to the PRESENT!!! Kind of. I liked the past stuff... so Ill probably have her flashback in this so you can see more of what she did and went through.

TO THE CHAPTER!! HERE WE GO!

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Choosing Fate

Chapter 10: Im Back! Take me back?

Bella's POV

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"Bella! You cant just let him do this to you again, you cant just let him walk back into your life after this many months. He hurt you! He hurt the girls, and your just going to forgive him?" Jacob growled. He was pissed off, but I guess he had a pretty good reason why. 

I sighed. I just didnt know what to do, I love Edward with all my heart, I mean, hes my mate! Or so I thought? I just didnt know if I could trust him again. I didnt know if I could allow myself to continue loving him if he was just going to hurt me. 

"I know Jake, I know," I whispered. I couldnt think of anything else to say... 

My mind started wandering back to the time Edward left, the haunting memories that would never leave my mind. They were forever burned in my brain, to torment me through the ends of the earth. Why? No matter how hard I tried, I couldnt get rid of them.

Maybe it was proof? To prove things can easily be taken away. Not to take things for granted, not to trust anyone? Or let Edward in? What was the point? I didnt have a clue, I wish I knew.

*~FLASHBACK~*

"Renesmee!" I squealed as she splashed me with her bath water. We were in our room, in the bathroom. I was giving her a bath before bed; We'd been in Italy for a few months now; All the bubbles were slowly starting to disapear now, so she stopped playing, and started splashing me. 

The clothes I had on, were now soaked. I groaned. Yes, I was going to have a bath, but when she was in bed sleeping! Now I had to get one when we was awake; I already didnt like leaving her alone, and now I had to for the bath. 

She giggled. "Your all wet now Momma! Come in!" She grabbed at my hand, trying to pull me in the bathtub with her. I sighed, running a free hand through my brown hair. "We got to get you ready for bed! Arent you tired?" She shook her head.

"No! Im not going to sleep ever, ever again Momma!" She muttered, folding her arms across her chest. She pouted, narrowing her eyes at me. It was probably the most cutest thing I've ever seen. I couldnt help but smiling, laughing a bit at her. I gave in, "Okay, okay fine!" 

After our bath, we put our PJ's on, and I dried our hair. She loves it when I dry and brush her hair, she falls asleep to it, one of the many things I do every night. After we were both ready for bed, we went out to the throne room to say good night to everyone.