Choosing Fate (Firelight Sequel)

Chapter 7: Where are you?

Recap: 

"Bella?" A husky familiar voice whispered. 

I shut my eyes, and then reopened them. In front of me was none other then, Jacob Black. In ghost form. What the hell? The world was spinning, I couldnt see. The last thing I saw before I passed out, was my daughter in my face, with Jacob standing behind her.

Choosing Fate (Firelight Sequal)

Chapter 7: Where are you?

Bella's POV

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When I woke up again, I expected to be on the floor near the door. I was suprised, when I felt the  bed sheets under me, and the pillows surrounding me. I was in my bedroom. What the hell? Just as I was about to get up and move, someone growled, and I saw movement.

"Stay in bed," The familiar husky voice told me. Jacob.

I froze in shock. How could this be possible? The pack took him down and killed him! Was I dreaming? I must be dreaming. Theres no way this could be real! Jacob Black is dead, not a ghost, not alive, dead! How could he be in my bedroom?

Peeking through my eyelashes, I saw Jacob across the room. He was sitting on the floor, almost crouched in a ball. His eyes were shut, but his face was masked with pain. 

"How ar-," I started to say when Jacob opened his eyes. His usual warm brown eyes were filled with regret, anger, that it stunned me into silence. Could he hurt me? Would he hurt me? He looked like a ghost. He couldnt touch me! I hoped...

All I could do was stare at him. My former best friend... my former werewolf best friend! His attack was still fresh in my brain, as hard as I try to get it out of my head, I couldnt. He hurt Renesmee, kissed her, when she was still a little baby. He went mad! Does he regret it now? Or was it for something else...

"Im sorry, Bells," Jacob whispered softly.

Im sorry... Im sorry... Im sorry.... Jacob was apologizing? 

"Im sorry for everything, I know you wont believe me, but... will you give me a chance to explain?" He asked me. "Just a minute, thats all im asking!"

Explain? He wanted to explain? He took Renesmee from me, kissed her, and then attacked Edward, throwing Renesmee in glass, how can he explain that!? I wanted to say no, to go away, but something in me couldnt. I actually wanted to know why he had attacked us.

I sighed, nodding my head finally. "You have a minute," I mumbled.

He cracked a weak smile. "You know I would never hurt you, I couldnt Bells! We grew up together, were like family. Why would I attack you? Why would I take your daughter from you? And attack Edward? I wouldnt," He paused for a minute, giving me time to let it all sink it. 

I thought we were like family, but then he had to go and do all of that. He wouldnt do it? But he did do it! It cant change the fact that he already attacked us! What does he think I'll do? Forgive him?

"Bella, that wasnt me! Well, I mean it was me, my body really, but I swear it wasnt me! Just hear me out please," He pleaded. Is he high? Is he smoking stuff? Wasnt him? 

I sighed, nodding my head. I had nothing else to do. 

"I didnt want you to become a bloodsucker. When I saw you were one of them, I freaked, I ran. Far away. When I mean far, I mean far." He paused again. "I ran all the way to Alaska, met some weird blonde chick, she looked like a bloodsucker, even smelled like one, but she wasnt one. She was a witch Bells, but you already know that... now,"