I used to not want to cry but now that the faucet is broken I can't stop every little thing gets on my nerves and I feel so helpless it is better to be able to cry again it really is but I also miss the emptiness which doesn't help because it still exists just with more water in the basin now what with all my crying and all sigh I'm just frustrated and angry at everyone I mean why can't shaela understand us we love her so much but she doesn't understand no one does they try but they just think we are weird I know they do it isn't fair why are we cursed with this why why why why why why why why why oh and also don't get me started on the not being able to have any kind of sharp things in my room because I'm unstable I'm so mad at myself I'm so mad at us why can't we just do this why did our mom neglect us why was our father so angry why why why why why I don't want to live like this I feel so fricking SUFFOCATED I CANT FUCKING BREATHE SCHOOL IS HARD I DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING AND NO ONE IS HELPING ME UNDERSTAND IT THEY ARE TRYING BUT ITS NOT HELPING WHY AM I SO DUMB WHY AM I STUPID WHY AM I WORTHLESS WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY IF GOD EXISTS WHY CANT HE COMMUNICATE HE CANT CONFIRM THAT HES REAL AT ALL ITS SO FRUSTRATING AND I CANT BE WHO I AM HERE AT MY HOME I CANT BE WHO I AM IM BEING SUPRESSED AND COMPRESSED INTO A CIRCLE I DONT WANT TO BE A CIRCLE I WANT TO BE A LINE A NEVER ENDING LINE I WANT TO BE A LINE WHY CANT I BE A LINE I WANNA BE FREE I WANNA BE FREE IM TRPPED I CANT BREATHE I CANT BREATHE I CANT BREATHE WHY DOES NO ONE LISTEN TO ME I CANT BREATHE. I can't breathe.
~Fin~
