Never Forever

Chapter Five

Caught up in a whirl wind of raw emotions I don't want to let either one of my grandparents go out of our tight group hug. Seeing them for the first time in over eleven years my breath is caught in the bottom of my throat from not only the balling my eyes out to the  quick sharp short breaths. Sometimes I when want to reach out to the pair of them something in the back of my mind has always been hesitant to go ahead and do it because I don't want to face mother dearest and her reactions which I know will blow out of proportion. 

My hysterical crying gradually over twenty minutes or so turn in to make my way down to a quite sob. Eyes puffy and red the skin around the pair of them feel sore my nose is blocked up with boogers and dripping with snot. Using the edge of my sleeve of the work polo top to wipe away some running snot grandfather stops me before I could do so and fishes out a small packet of tissues out of his puffer jacket pocket. 

"Thank you." I whisper under my breath pulling one folded tissue out to clean up my face the best that I can. He kissed me on the top of my head and proceeded to step back and kick up the chair I had knocked over when they first walked in to the food hall.

I really didn't think I would get to see my grandparents again after my mother dearest pretty much shunned them out of my life for dotting on me that little bit more than on Alice. Which to be fair at the time I had spent more time with my grandparents having them as my constant baby sitters while Alice had come in to the picture and dearest mother of mine totally didn't trust my young self to keep myself amused at home. As she spend her free time from work trying to welcome Alice back in to a safe environment after her negative experience. 

"Oh come now baby girl everything is going to be all right. But we need to stop the tears now and have a long conversation about a number of things which I think is a long over due for all of us." My grandmother says pulling away from me yet keeping a hold of my wrists to stare at my eyes for a moment.

Searching in my the look on my face and behind my eyes for something that she wanted confirmation on. Grandmother soon turns away from me palming me off to grandfather for another round of hugs and address Alannah who has tears in the corner of her eyes. I love being within my grandfather's arms because just like my grandmother they too make me feel safe, loved, and not invisible. 

"Alannah is there any where that we can use which has more of a comfortable sitting space for out over due conversation. The sky has turned dark now and this food hall building from what I saw earlier it has some large cracks here and there within the roof and its walls bringing in the bitter wind picking up outside." 

"I was here the other say cleaning out one of the old staff cabins for me to use while I would be here overnight when I know I would get swamped with the remodelling. So we can go and head over there and get the fire going to warm us up too."

We headed over there together to the staff lodges over on the other side of the lake behind the food hall and towards that side of the fence. Grandfather and I lent up against the door of the food hall attempting to close it the best that we could to keep out any wondering individuals still thinking that the place is still abandoned  and any other lost critters wanting to get a hold of any food or trying to find a place to stay out of the cold of the January wind. 

Under the moon light raised up high in the sky on this clear night bats flew back and forth between the trees followed up by the hooting of an owl or two either sitting on one of the buildings or sat on one of the nearby tree branches. All the wildlife noise echoes through the wind busting up against us from behind us which has me wrapping my fur lined leather jacket around my body to capture the last bit of warm within my body. While I spent the most of our journey over there staring at all the things that have been left behind as if everyone just dropped the things they were using to just leave without any notice.