𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞/𝐞𝐧𝐡𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐣𝐚𝐤𝐞

Ｃｈａｐｔｅｒ 4

//tw!!//

We started eating while we're discussing business, Mrs. Sim just listening to us. I never let myself throw a single glance at him.

"As of now, we're still at the top. I'm very thankful to my employees since they're the ones who work hard". I respond to Mr. Lincoln.

"No- okay sorry to interrupt but you contribute a lot too in your company". Mrs. Shim said, I let out a small smile.

"You looked different from the last time I saw you". It really hits me.

"We need to change for the better". I looked at the quiet man on the side, he looked clueless.

"One of the reasons why I know Liv is because of your son". Mrs. Shim looked at her son.

"What? since when? If I knew it I would probably meet you as soon as possible". Mr.Lincoln said but somehow still confused.

"They became friends here five years ago. You don't know because you're always in the other country and didn't have a chance to meet her". Okay this is awkward, okay.

"I wanted to know what kind of person Liv was 5 years ago". I become quiet, I don't want to talk about the past.

"She's a cheerful person! She's been really smart since then and loves her family so much. When Jake introduced her to me I already knew that I would love this girl. She's so good". Mrs. Shim responded.

"But I'm not that person anymore. I realized how serious the world is, how the world works that leads me to what I am now". I said. I feel Vivian's eyes on me.

They continued talking about me but I preferred to stay quiet.

"By the way, my son Jake is the one that will handle our company since I'm getting older and I need someone to replace my position. This is also the reason why I wanted to have a meeting with you". Mr. Shim said.

"To our next project that we will do he will be the one you will get to meet when you need something or if there's a problem. Since you two have become friends, I'm optimistic that you will create a good partnership". He continued.

I don't know why but I wanted to run and hide just to not see his face. It makes my blood boil.

The aura around us doesn't make me feel good. Knowing his presence seated across me made me sick. I feel my tears start to form.

"I see, Mr. Lincoln. I have to go since I still have a meeting with the others". I tapped Vivian to get up since she's not moving.

"But Ms.-"

"Let's go, we still have a meeting". I signal her, luckily she gets it.

"We are really sorry, Mr, Mrs. Shim and uhm... Jake? I have to go now, I will just see you next time. Byee". I bid goodbye and quickly walked away, Vivian follows.

I can't breathe, I feel like someone is choking me. I'm starting to have a panic attack, I'm getting anxious, my anxiety. Plus my head keeps on running thoughts that doesn't help to make me calm. I put my hands on my chest and started to breathe heavily. I tried my best to breathe properly but I couldn't. It feels like I'm suffocating.

My breathing becomes abnormal.

"Liv, are you okay?". Vivian holds my shoulder.

"I-I c-can't b-breathe". She quickly helped me to get in the car and told the driver to go to the nearest hospital.

"Liv, follow me. Inhale, Exhale, do it slowly". Vivian helps me to relax but I can't.

Vivian can't help but to panic, I can see to her eyes the fear. I can feel her hands shaking too fast.

She doesn't know what to do, she doesn't know how she will calm me down. This is the first time she saw this type of me. We've been together for 5 years, I know she already knows what I want and who truly I am but the last thing she doesn't know is this.

She met the new side of me.

My mind wanted it to stop but my body can't cooperate. This is the first time in 4 years that it happened again, I thought I'm already fine.

But seeing his face, his body, his whole presence makes my mind think again of what happened 5 years ago. It makes me suffer again from the things I didn't even do.

We reached the hospital and I quickly rushed to the ER.

The next thing I knew I was in the white room with my Mom seated beside me.

"Darling! Are you okay? What do you feel? Tell me". Mom sounds worried.

"I-I'm fine, I'm okay". I said in my weakest voice.

"Your sister is on her way, we are for you darling". My tears started to fall from my eyes.

Just then the door opened revealing my friend and my sister. They quickly go to my bed and do their best to calm me.

I just can't stop crying, I feel like I'm a baby again, needing someone's attention. They let me cry without talking, which makes me somehow thankful.

"Mrs.Choi, the doctor needs you". Vivian peek on the door, when she saw me she entered while my Mom went to see my doctor.

"Liv, are you okay?". I nodded and tried my best to smile.

"Thank you". I tried my best to smile at her.

"Can we have a minute?". My friend Sena asked Vivian, she nodded and walked out the room.

"What happened?". Sena asked.

"He's back?". My sister asked, I let out a sigh and nodded.

"I meet h-him with his family, I supposed to meet Mr. Lincoln which is one of my business partner. I didn't know that it's his Dad since I never met him, plus his Mom is also there. I don't know, it looks like in part of my head all the memories flashback". I didn't notice my tears streaming down.

"They talk about us, being friends with each other, the two of us stay quiet. I quickly left because I felt the pain and my tears started to form but then it started to have an a-attack again. I-I thought I-I already fine! I-I thought I'm strong enough! I thought I'm healed!". The two of them rushed to hug me, I can't stop crying.

"Shush, shush- it's fine we're here Liv, we're here". They caressed my back and hands.

Only the three of us know what happened to me, they know the reason for this. They know how much pain I suffer to reach what I am now. I'm sure they were also shocked to see me like this again. It's been 4 years since they witnessed this happen to me.

All I did was cry on their shoulder. Making myself let out what I feel through these tears.