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chapter 9

Chapter 9:

Ixion carter:

(Ixion 18 and Rose 13)

"Rose princess, go and unpack your bags yeah? You can take the biggest room okay love" I inform her.

"Okay Ixion, I love you" she mutters while kissing my cheek.

Something seems off about her I wonder what? Eh, I'm probably overreacting.

Its midnight and I tuck rose to bed with a kiss on her forehead, I'm trying to give rose a normal childhood so I try my best to somewhat be a father figure for her. I shower and head towards my bed. Something feels off..hm it's probably nothing. I close my eyes and begin to drift off into a dream

(Flashback/dream)

"Rosie baby why do I smell something burning?" I call.

"Ixion come; come here I'm making cookies" she responds. Oh, fuck this 8-year-old kid is going to be the death of me.

"Hey, darling it's burnt. How about we make a new batch yeah kiddo?"

"Okay, Ixion!" She answers all hyper and jumping up and down.

God, I love this kid.

Pouring the flour in I feel small hands touch my cheeks. "Princess how dare you! Come back here" I say while chasing a squealing 8-year-old.

"Oh so were going play like that," I speak tired of chasing her around, I grab some eggs on the counter throwing them at her making sure not to harm her.

She screams and grabs some chocolate chips and starts throwing a ton at me.

By then end we both wash up and start working on the cookies.

"Princess come on the cookies are ready!" I shout to Rose who's in the kitchen." Coming" she screams while running to the kitchen.

"Go on baby taste it. See if you like it. You did make it after all"

"Okie Dokie" She carefully blows on it making sure it's cool and takes a bite her eyes go wide.

"I DID IT IXION! I DID" she shouts proud of herself that she made tasty cookies. I smile at her making sure she knows I'm proud of her.

I wake up and something still doesn't feel right fuck. That dream was weird can you have a flashback dream well apparently you can because you just had one dumbass. Whatever its 5 am and I don't feel like sleeping maybe I should check on Rose.

I slowly open her door as she is sleeping. "WHAT THE FUCK!" I enter roses room to see a rope tied to the fan of her bedroom as the other side of the rope is around her neck. Oh, holy fuck no, no, no, this can't be happening. I can't lose the only family I have I just can't oh god please no. "Rose baby" I run to her on the verge of tears hoping she is alive no she has to be.

I touch her arm and immediately take it back. So, cold. She feels so fucking cold. By now tears were falling out of my eyes and running down my face. I couldn't give a flying shit though. I hugged her lifeless body as my hands and body were shaking, I cannot say bye I can't. Just like that my baby sister was gone, the girl who smiles radiated like the sun the girl who can light up a whole gad damn room just by being there was gone. I sobbed into her shoulder taking in her scent one last time.

"You did it, princess. You did it" I whisper my voice cracking.

I called 911. I don't remember what I said. I don't care what I said.

I remember the ambulance coming. Trying to see if they can get Rose to come back again and it didn't work. My vision went hazy and all the air evaporated. I felt trapped, I have no one left one by fucking one I watched every single one of my family members die right in front of my eyes. Why am I alive again? Oh, right rose but she's gone now so I have nothing to live for even Saylor left but that was because of me. I can feel my heart breaking all over again when I think of her and that stupid fucking cold touch I felt when touching my baby sisters body. It haunts me that I can't even sleep anymore. It's been more than a day since Rose died, I don't know the time or what day it is. All I can do is replay the scene again and again while sitting on the floor looking at the wall as my back pressed against the door. Maybe if I listened to my stupid gut feeling I could have saved her. I'm such a dumb fuck. It's all my fault. Why did you have to leave me, princess?

It hurts so much the pain is so unbearable.

Whilst I may appear alive, I died the day she did.

I love you so so much Rose please come back to me bubba I need you.