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chapter 21

Ixion carter:
There is something about this girl to the way her hair cascades down to her arse to her mindful thoughts. She got me captured and I don't know if I like it.

I liked today it felt like I could finally breathe like she was a breath of fresh air. It's like I finally knew how to be alive after years. I wanted to be alive. Something tells me if I had to have a reason to be alive right now it would be her. Just I don't know her.

Damn, I sound like a pussy.

Driving Saylor back home, I wonder if we can ever go back to 5 years later where I would always be there for her where she would always run to me and I would do the exact same. We were each other's emotional support. Is that even healthy? Probably not. It's complete silence and I like silence so I don't really care but I could see and also hear Saylor fucking fidgeting. I thought she would of give rid of that habit.

It's pissing me off.

"Saylor do you need something?" I ask annoyance obvious in my voice. "Huh no I don't need anything," She says as she continues to still fucking fidget. "Spill it women or ill kick you out of the car," I say as something is obviously bothering her. "Mhm sure you will" she replies rolling her eyes while looking outside the window as we drive by different fields.

"Your right I won't but for the love of god can u spill you won't stop fidgeting and it's annoying," I tell her.

"Okay fine. I just don't want this to end I hate to admit but I actually had fun but that doesn't mean I like you better and consider you an actual human being" She states. I raise a brow slightly amused.

"So, you don't consider me a human being? Damn, I wonder what I am?" I joke trying to distract her from her thoughts. I remember how she use to be so consumed with her thoughts she would have these random break downs.

She gives a slight smile.

"You know I wish the day wasn't over it. Wait a second it doesn't have to be let's do random things until the morning then after that we can go back to hating each other well I will I don't know or care about you." Every word that comes at of her eyes my mind comes more confused. Does she want to spend more time together?

Her and me?

Has hell frozen over?

I consider it. This is my only chance to feel alive and finally breathe and step out of this bubble around me that has swallowed me completely and left me trapped.

"Let's do it," I tell her "Let's spend the whole night together you can choose to do whatever you want"

Her eyes light up and I can see the excitement bursting through her.

"Let's make cookies you made bomb ass cookies when we were kids and I've been craving them so let's make them," she says

"By we do you mean you sitting your ass down and watching me do all the cooking because u stuck at baking fresh things?"

She nods sheepishly.

I do a U-turn to head towards my house.

"Hey hey no I don't want to go to your apartment."

"What why?" I ask as my eyebrows draw together

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She looks at me with those blue and brown eyes and fucking hell if they aren't the most beautiful and unique eyes I have ever seen..damn.